Prodigal Son wrote:i used to go twice a week. haven't gone in awhile. i feel i don't belong.
Did you discuss this with your priest? They are shining lights in this hateful world. I have found that you can't feel unbelonging when you talk to a priest. I hope you find the same thing.
I was afraid too. When you're ready, do it. Fear is just holding you back, do you want to be a slave to your emotions forever, or do you want to shine as the person you really are?
Prodigal Son wrote:i want to be who God meant me to be. i went by a church today and just sat in the parking lot.
What are you doing in a parking lot
It's like getting a shot at the doctor. It might be uncomfortable and scary, but it's for your own good. Except in this case, once you get past the fear, all the uncertainty melts away and you feel like a great weight has been lifted off of you.
Go to church!!!
Or try to set up an appointment with a priest so you can have a private talk with him.
I usually go on Wednesdays to the Bible study at my church. I like it better than the Sunday service and am glad it's in the evening instead of a weekend morning! And I don't believe in a new Sabbath, so it works for me!
When I joined my church last fall I went Sundays, Wednesdays and every other Friday. I've been missing Fridays, which I really like, because I forget or make other plans. Either way none of these three things are what I'd ideally like and find useful. Kind of funny though, some of what I'd like in them I find here!