I see where you are coming from. If I am putting it simply from a Christian perspective, this is where the idea of faith comes into play. Faith begins where human limitations end in many respects, and by that I mean that we could never empirically prove the eschatalogical aspect of the Bible is truth, but I have faith that it is because I believe God to be true to His word.Religion, especially with those that claim descent from Abraham, make claims about the afterlife, or afterdeath which are pretty specific. I see no reason to take anything as authoritative on what I see as purely speculative matters.
I suppose I find myself in the same place again. It seems to me that you just have an issue with the diea of personally believing Jesus Christ to be the real Lord of all and that's fine, many people have an issue with that and it is a decision which you make within yourself! I deeply sympathize with you over your condition, may I ask if you are still suffering from it or has it since ceased? I think that self-centered, egoistic Christianity is a difficult one to discuss, personally I believe that as Christians we should have a heart for other people and helping them in any possible manner, all the time trying not to be self-centered and egoistic but I understand that there are many Christians who are like that. We all fall short of the glory of God, that's why we're doing the best we can but are failing, as you so rightly put it. That is why I'm so grateful of the measures that God went to simply to ensure that His grace would cover all of my sin, and yours if you're willing to accept it.Not sure what you mean here. It's not so much that I feel Christianity is not true religion, it's just one religion of many. One can explore a relationship with the divine through many vehicles. Jesus is to me one of the huge lights in humanities understanding of the divine, but I see no convincing reason to accept everything that was attributed to him as Gospel.
I have no idea what will happen when I die, I thought that might change when I was recently diagnosed with leukaemia and felt for a while like I was staring death in the face, it didn't. I will find out what happens when I die when I die, until then I will follow my heart. My overriding philosophy since my diagnosis has been that of 'wash every dish as if it were a baby Buddha' or a baby Jesus if you prefer - I feel like Christianity as it is often portrayed these days is an ego trip, it's largely based on concern for oneself and the want to keep the self going on forever in the most favourable conditions imaginable. I'm doing the best I can, and failing, along with everyone else here.
SB
Still praying..
