My journey

[Storyteller]

Now that brought tears of healing.

I am in a world of pain right now yet I feel blessed and loved.
Its taken me until now to admit it, to face it, to deal with it.
And I feel God carrying me.
There are so many people I have to let go and it hurts.

I am learning that I am loved, worth loving.
I dont want to change, just get better and closer to God.

Rejection and lonliness are too familiar to me, its hard to lose that shell, become vulnerable again, to trust that this time Im safe.

But I am.
So I will embrace this pain and weep before God.
And trust in the hands that wipe them away.
I love you all.
Especially God.

I would give you my hug if I was there and you could weep on my shoulders.

Thank you Hana

[Nessa]

hey..writing down ur thoughts on scripture sound great...maybe we can get a study thing happening here?

[1over137]

Sure we can.

[Storyteller]

Sounds good to me

I am still working through it, I`ve read Matthew, Mark and Luke. John is next, although I may skip and re read Genesis to try and help figure out my creation stance.

I have a weeks holiday at the end of August so maybe we can start a study thread then? I want to be able to devote some time to it rather than just spending a few minutes here and there.

[1over137]

Sounds great.

[Storyteller]

Consider it done then

[Nessa]

Sounds good to me

I am still working through it, I`ve read Matthew, Mark and Luke. John is next, although I may skip and re read Genesis to try and help figure out my creation stance.

I have a weeks holiday at the end of August so maybe we can start a study thread then? I want to be able to devote some time to it rather than just spending a few minutes here and there.

.

[Storyteller]

How can I be so straight, and on the ball in so many ways yet be a complete mess?

My mum in law, who is so, so special is ill, hubs is up with her. She will be fine but its still sobering. So I am drinking. through fear, hopelesness and weariness.

thats what is is, im tired of being weary.

and all through this God carries me yet I still fear to let go.

It scares me, to let all this pain go.

[Nessa]

How can I be so straight, and on the ball in so many ways yet be a complete mess?

My mum in law, who is so, so special is ill, hubs is up with her. She will be fine but its still sobering. So I am drinking. through fear, hopelesness and weariness.

thats what is is, im tired of being weary.

and all through this God carries me yet I still fear to let go.

It scares me, to let all this pain go.

Sometimes I think we live with emotions like pain, anger, depression and fear for so long that it almost attaches itself to us and becomes apart of who
we think we are. And if we let go.. we wonder what will be underneath, what it will feel like and how we will cope even with freedom.

Maybe like a prisoner that leaves prison but breaks the law again because he can't handle being on the outside and he feels safer on the inside.

[Storyteller]

I dream of flying, often, and it always make me cry.

I want to soar high and fly free.

I adore life, and living but sometimes I get this glimpse, like a rainbow, so elusive, so magical, something more.

I want to be free of drinking and it breaks my heart each time I do. How low do I have to sink, how often do I need to dust myself down?

I'm tired.

But hey

My love, awe, respect and faith in God is stronger than ever, as is my love for you all x

[Storyteller]

I dream of flying, often, and it always make me cry.

I want to soar high and fly free.

I adore life, and living but sometimes I get this glimpse, like a rainbow, so elusive, so magical, something more.

I want to be free of drinking and it breaks my heart each time I do. How low do I have to sink, how often do I need to dust myself down?

I'm tired.

But hey

My love, awe, respect and faith in God is stronger than ever, as is my love for you all x

[abelcainsbrother]

God's own son
https://m.youtube.com/?#/watch?v=OBS-mWdBVxc

[1over137]

John 12:46
I have come as Light into the world, so that everyone who believes in Me will not remain in darkness

[B. W.]

Stoyteller, Here is a video that will cheer you up!

[Nessa]

do you drink to get drunk or just to take the edge off?