Kurieuo wrote:RickD wrote:Storyteller wrote:ever just feel kinda flat?
maybe its the painkillers. I just feel low. I wana feel special, ya know? like I matter to someone, anyone.
Go lick your dog then.
Dog's like licking themselves.
Seems to make them happy.
Do you have a place where you can just go to think?
If you can, just stop what you're doing, and go for a drive somewhere.
Go get a coffee, sit in a park (that looks really bad for us guys if we don't take the kids!
).
Sometimes you just have to break from your normal surroundings.
That can help make you feel better. Gives you time to think about whatever it is bugging you.
Come up with a solution or something, or just a distraction.
Had a walk (well hobble actually) with the dog along the beach this morning with the dog, it helped clear my head a little. I really do find such peace by the sea.
I feel a little better this morning, I think it`s worse at night, ya know? When it`s late and dark. I just feel trapped somehow, I know that probably doesn`t make sense. It doesn`t help with my ankle either as it`s at it`s worst at night. I has a physio session last week with some weight bearing exercises to do, saw them again this morning and I need to go back a step due to the new swelling and increase in pain. They now think I have badly bruised the bone which apparently hurts as much as a fracture with the same amount of healing time. I have to rest my ankle as much as I can over the weekend and if it hasn`t settled down they will x-ray it again. If they do find a fracture (nothing showed up on the first one) then I am right back at the start!
It`s weird, I used to be known for my even temperament, I would just coast along, nothing really got to me, now...... well, I am wayyyyy more emotional than I used to be. Maybe I always have in the back of my mind the fear that I will, or could, slip back into depression. It`s like I have to learn how to feel down again without assuming it`s the onset of depression again.
It`s hard to figure out sometimes, what it is, if anything, that`s bugging me. Maybe it`s just getting used to feeling a variation of emotions, deeply and fully rather than just kinda skimming along.
A lot has happened over the last few months, a lot to take in and there`s a lot to ponder. I just need to go with the flow a little more I think.