My journey

[Furstentum Liechtenstein]

SometimesI just want to be loved, needed, cherished.I know I am but I need to hear it. Does that make me needy? Insecure? Vain?

Relax! It just confirms that you are a woman. It also confirms the biblical command that a man should love his wife, Ephesians 5: 25, 28. (Men don't need to be told they are loved, needed, cherished.)

But then, when people tell me I'm I'm all those things, that they like me, I dont believe them

The above is insecurity. If they don't tell you these things, you doubt you are appreciated. If they do, you doubt their sincerity. Insecurity fed by a damned-if-they-do, damned-if-they-don't catch-22 scenario. You've set yourself up to feel bad whatever the situation. Why? What aspect of your personality are you feeding with this? or, What are you gaining?

[Storyteller]

SometimesI just want to be loved, needed, cherished.I know I am but I need to hear it. Does that make me needy? Insecure? Vain?

Relax! It just confirms that you are a woman. It also confirms the biblical command that a man should love his wife, Ephesians 5: 25, 28. (Men don't need to be told they are loved, needed, cherished.)

But then, when people tell me I'm I'm all those things, that they like me, I dont believe them

The above is insecurity. If they don't tell you these things, you doubt you are appreciated. If they do, you doubt their sincerity. Insecurity fed by a damned-if-they-do, damned-if-they-don't catch-22 scenario. You've set yourself up to feel bad whatever the situation. Why? What aspect of your personality are you feeding with this? or, What are you gaining?

But I dont feel bad, I feel choked, doubtful, I gotta live upto this kinda thing.
Christ is my role model. I want to be like Him, in all His glory. His humility, His grace, His love.
I cant, not in this life. But its still an ideal.
I used to think become Christ like? Lose me? My identity? Become a clone?
Its just hit me.
Thats not what He means.
I always wanted to know why I was special.
Finally, I think I get it.
Cos im me.

[Storyteller]

Im gaining self belief.
Im daring to believe it might be true, me being these things.

[Nessa]

SometimesI just want to be loved, needed, cherished.I know I am but I need to hear it. Does that make me needy? Insecure? Vain?

Relax! It just confirms that you are a woman. It also confirms the biblical command that a man should love his wife, Ephesians 5: 25, 28. (Men don't need to be told they are loved, needed, cherished.)

But then, when people tell me I'm I'm all those things, that they like me, I dont believe them

The above is insecurity. If they don't tell you these things, you doubt you are appreciated. If they do, you doubt their sincerity. Insecurity fed by a damned-if-they-do, damned-if-they-don't catch-22 scenario. You've set yourself up to feel bad whatever the situation. Why? What aspect of your personality are you feeding with this? or, What are you gaining?

The ephesians quote is specifically talking about the sacrifical type of love....

So unless its a sacrifice for the husband to say 'I love you' to the wife then I dont think it really gets at what ST is saying. Though I do believe wholeheartedly husbands should do that

[Storyteller]

Sometimes you get the answer to a question you havent even asked.

[Nessa]

Though verse 28, husbands loving their wife as their own body ties in a bit better

[Storyteller]

[Furstentum Liechtenstein]

The ephesians quote is specifically talking about the sacrifical type of love....

It is also talking about conjugal love. See Eph 5:28...all of Ephesians 5 from v.22 to v.33 is about love, conjugal and sacrificial...both of these end up being the same in the end. Ask Jesus.

Excuse me now, I think I'll hit the bottle pour me a dram of Islay.

[Nessa]

The ephesians quote is specifically talking about the sacrifical type of love....

It is also talking about conjugal love. See Eph 5:28...all of Ephesians 5 from v.22 to v.33 is about love, conjugal and sacrificial...both of these end up being the same in the end. Ask Jesus.

Excuse me now, I think I'll hit the bottle pour me a dram of Islay.

Well, you really must be IRFC cos you didnt offer us a drink

[Furstentum Liechtenstein]

Well, you really must be IRFC cos you didnt offer us a drink

Women are not really scotch drinkers, by and large.

For what it's worth, I'm having Lagavulin 16 years old. (IT is worth a lot...)

[Storyteller]

I have Four Loves by C.S. Lewis.

Conjugal, sacrificial... its all love.

I havent read it yet.

And

Im drunk.
Again.
And I was doing so well.

So I pray
God
I give it to you
I try and be good
I fail
again
and again
and again.

One day
God
I wont

I know it
Because I believe
in you

I cant do this
not alone
so
its yours

Grace.
Thank you Lord, God.

[Nessa]

Well, you really must be IRFC cos you didnt offer us a drink

Women are not really scotch drinkers, by and large.

For what it's worth, I'm having Lagavulin 16 years old. (IT is worth a lot...)

That bottle is older than bluejay4..
So why are you hitting the bottle pouring yourself scotch?
My grandad use to drink scotch, always looked to us kids like some awful medicine...

[Nessa]

I have Four Loves by C.S. Lewis.

Conjugal, sacrificial... its all love.

I havent read it yet.

And

Im drunk.
Again.
And I was doing so well.

So I pray
God
I give it to you
I try and be good
I fail
again
and again
and again.

One day
God
I wont

I know it
Because I believe
in you

I cant do this
not alone
so
its yours

Grace.
Thank you Lord, God.

Story
Did something new happen?

This is my go to song for when I feel like I cant do something - which is often.
Hope it speaks to you

[Storyteller]

Yeah. Im drinking again

Just tonight, but still.

[Storyteller]

cant see the vid, on kindle.

bang bang nancy sinatra sums up hiw I feel