My journey

[Nessa]

Read this poem by the author you pmed me..have you read it?

On Friendship

And a youth said, "Speak to us of Friendship."
Your friend is your needs answered.
He is your field which you sow with love and reap with thanksgiving.
And he is your board and your fireside.
For you come to him with your hunger, and you seek him for peace.
When your friend speaks his mind you fear not the "nay" in your own mind, nor do you withhold the "ay."
And when he is silent your heart ceases not to listen to his heart;
For without words, in friendship, all thoughts, all desires, all expectations are born and shared, with joy that is unacclaimed.
When you part from your friend, you grieve not;
For that which you love most in him may be clearer in his absence, as the mountain to the climber is clearer from the plain.
And let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the spirit.
For love that seeks aught but the disclosure of its own mystery is not love but a net cast forth: and only the unprofitable is caught.
And let your best be for your friend.
If he must know the ebb of your tide, let him know its flood also.
For what is your friend that you should seek him with hours to kill?
Seek him always with hours to live.
For it is his to fill your need, but not your emptiness.
And in the sweetness of friendship let there be laughter, and sharing of pleasures.
For in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed.


[Storyteller]

I have indeed. I've read them all

What do you think of them? I love them, I always find something in them, they move my soul.

[Storyteller]

God is love, absolute love.
But how can He be when there is a condition? That you believe. Maybe thats the point, without faith there is no absolute love.

[Storyteller]

Faith is absolute love.
He believes in us, He created us.
A gift, the ultimate gift, life.
Believe in love.
Believe in Him.
Have faith.
In God, in love.
Absolute.

[RickD]

God is love, absolute love.
But how can He be when there is a condition? That you believe. Maybe thats the point, without faith there is no absolute love.

I think there's absolute love always. Because God is love. But for us to fully realize His love, we must have faith.

1 Corinthians 2:9
9 but just as it is written,

“Things which eye has not seen and ear has not heard,
And which have not entered the heart of man,
All that God has prepared for those who love Him.”

No matter how we imagine heaven, we can't! God has prepared something for us, even better than we could possibly imagine!

[Storyteller]

A Christmas gift (or two)

Pink, fluffy, girlie pjs from hubbs.
Cuddly, warm Christmas jumper from daughter.
Simple, silver crucifix from in laws.

I am blessed, truly.

[Storyteller]

Oh, and I txt my dad saying Merry Christmas, I love you both, the reply? Thanks but dont recognise the number.

[RickD]

Oh, and I txt my dad saying Merry Christmas, I love you both, the reply? Thanks but dont recognise the number.

One half of me wants to laugh. The other half of me wants to cry.

[Storyteller]

Do both

I did

[Byblos]

Oh, and I txt my dad saying Merry Christmas, I love you both, the reply? Thanks but dont recognise the number.

One half of me wants to laugh. The other half of me wants to cry.

This is probably a silly question but did you consider the possibility that he may actually not have recognized the number? Humor him and identify yourself. You may be surprised.

[Storyteller]

Oh, and I txt my dad saying Merry Christmas, I love you both, the reply? Thanks but dont recognise the number.

One half of me wants to laugh. The other half of me wants to cry.

This is probably a silly question but did you consider the possibility that he may actually not have recognized the number? Humor him and identify yourself. You may be surprised.

I did think of that but....

I`m his daughter and he hasn`t got my number (that I`ve had for years) on his phone?

Anyway, after thinking about it I just text back That`s okay Dad x

Nothing. Nada. Zilch.

I won`t stop trying to heal this rift, or at least paper over the cracks, but there has to be a time when I say enough. I can`t, won`t take the pain anymore. I will never turn my back on them, they are my parents but there is only so much I can do.

It hurts that they have rejected me, and even worse, something I find very hard to forgive, they rejected my daughter, their granddaughter. We waited so long, went through so much to have her and they reject her? So totally and utterly. I tell her they love her dearly, she just says and thinks funny way of showing it. What I really wanna do is tell her just how narrow minded, bigoted and selfish they are but of course I can`t, won`t. Instead I absorb it all, hide it all away.
I am working hard on forgiveness with this, maybe that`s why it`s happened, so I can practice forgiveness. It`s so hard to though when really all I wanna do is shout, scream and cry, not for me but for my daughter.

So, I shall carry on reaching out and losing a piece of my heart each time. For my daughter. Just wish they could have done/will do the same one day.

[Nessa]

Thinking of you x

[Storyteller]

Thank you honey

I swing from anger to pity, from love to, dare I say it, hate?
I try and understand why, how but I just can`t! And it hurts.
Then I just think their loss but it isn`t is it? It`s everybodys loss, especially my daughter. One small thing I`m grateful for is that they have never had much to do with her so it`s not like she was used to having them around and they suddenly disappeared.

I am truly blessed with my husband (as bloody iritating as he is) and my daughter, I have my family and the in laws are absolutely fantastic grandparents That`s what I focus on

[Nessa]

Thank you honey

I swing from anger to pity, from love to, dare I say it, hate?
I try and understand why, how but I just can`t! And it hurts.
Then I just think their loss but it isn`t is it? It`s everybodys loss, especially my daughter. One small thing I`m grateful for is that they have never had much to do with her so it`s not like she was used to having them around and they suddenly disappeared.

I am truly blessed with my husband (as bloody iritating as he is) and my daughter, I have my family and the in laws are absolutely fantastic grandparents That`s what I focus on

Sorry, I couldnt offer more - sometimes I have nothing in me to give but my thoughts.

The swinging from love to hate.....
I have felt that myself. I wonder if at times it could be like this....

The sun with dark stormy clouds obscuring it. The sun is still there but something is hiding it from view. The sun is like love and the dark stormy clouds are like hate. But for some people the clouds pass quickly and the warmth of the sun can once again be felt.

Hang in there

[Storyteller]

Sometimes your thoughts are all you need to offer

Your comment was like the sun peeking through

I really, really like that analogy, thank you Ness