My journey

[RickD]

To be fair though, no Catholic has ever said that to me.
Many a Protestant has though.
Funny how we interpret things.

That's because any Catholic staying true to their doctrine should believe Christ is enough. I'm only teasing. Byblos knows I have a lot of respect for him, despite his Catholicism.

[1over137]

I'm fit to burst, honestly. Its an honour to be her mum. So exciting seeing her grow.
And, I learn from her too.

How do I even begin to thank God for her?

you have just begun

[Storyteller]

Tonight, I am drinking.
With real thoughts of not wanting to, I want more from life.
Watching Nick Vujicic, crying hard.

so much of what he says I get.

The one thing yhat torments me, still is my drinking, and smoking.
Sure, ive cut down the drinking and only smoke (as in "smoke") once a day, before bed. but I dont wanna. its not me, not the real me.
not the forgiven, accrpted, saved me.
so why do I still judge myself, put myself down? as in drunk druggie fool?
im glad though, because it means im still fighting, still trying, getting up again.

if my hubbs ever read this thread im not sure how he would react but I think it matters. somehow.

[1over137]

You are forgiven by God through Jesus Christ.
Forgiven by God,
forgive yourself
(hug)

[RickD]

Tonight, I am drinking.
With real thoughts of not wanting to, I want more from life.
Watching Nick Vujicic, crying hard.

so much of what he says I get.

The one thing yhat torments me, still is my drinking, and smoking.
Sure, ive cut down the drinking and only smoke (as in "smoke") once a day, before bed. but I dont wanna. its not me, not the real me.
not the forgiven, accrpted, saved me.
so why do I still judge myself, put myself down? as in drunk druggie fool?
im glad though, because it means im still fighting, still trying, getting up again.

if my hubbs ever read this thread im not sure how he would react but I think it matters. somehow.

You definitely should cut down on your drinking. You're slurring your words.
Either that, or it's your Kvindle acting up again.

[Nessa]

Tonight, I am drinking.
With real thoughts of not wanting to, I want more from life.
Watching Nick Vujicic, crying hard.

so much of what he says I get.

The one thing yhat torments me, still is my drinking, and smoking.
Sure, ive cut down the drinking and only smoke (as in "smoke") once a day, before bed. but I dont wanna. its not me, not the real me.
not the forgiven, accrpted, saved me.
so why do I still judge myself, put myself down? as in drunk druggie fool?
im glad though, because it means im still fighting, still trying, getting up again.

if my hubbs ever read this thread im not sure how he would react but I think it matters. somehow.

You definitely should cut down on your drinking. You're slurring your words.
Either that, or it's your Kvindle acting up again.

Oi! ST spelt nick's last name right... I cant do that stone cold sober

Maybe you should let your husband see this thread, ST.. Just a thought...
When the time is right.

[Storyteller]

Maybe.

But thats what scares me, him reading this. He would hate how much I share.
Too personal, too revealing. Besides, its my carthasis.

But what if I need to share and hes against it?

[Kurieuo]

Jesus said the wise build their house upon a rock.
How much more our own houses? Anything less than truth risks being washed away and be as nothing.

It's a tough truth that many people try to cover, do not understand, refuse to acknowledge with the best intentions of avoiding conflict and trying to put love first. I've learnt in painful ways with my own parents and siblings, while I thought I was still being honest and straight up many years of relationship all got washed away in a matter of days.

[1over137]

What happened K, if I may ask?

[Philip]

Just remember, we have to be wise as we share intense things. If you overwhelm someone suddenly, with ALL your stuff, ALL at once, they often can't handle it. My suggestion would be to slowly frame your thinking and feelings, so as to be slowly digested. Don't try to make someone drink from a fire hose, as it might just be too much, too suddenly. What might be an anticipated catharsis for YOU might totally freak out another who misunderstands.

[1over137]

Jesus said the wise build their house upon a rock.
How much more our own houses? Anything less than truth risks being washed away and be as nothing.

It's a tough truth that many people try to cover, do not understand, refuse to acknowledge with the best intentions of avoiding conflict and trying to put love first. I've learnt in painful ways with my own parents and siblings, while I thought I was still being honest and straight up many years of relationship all got washed away in a matter of days.

I think K it is happenning to me.
Sorry Annete for little hijack of your thread.

[Kurieuo]

What happened K, if I may ask?

I somehow missed your question.
Only one person really knows here, because I shared emails and the like with them that gave direct insight.
It's really so complicated to explain, requires insight into my past, growing up, family interactions, etc.

But basically, forsaking truth for peace, to get along in harmony, in the name of "forgiveness" and what-not, relationships built upon such can quickly evaporate and amount to nothing. Reconciliation is never true in such circumstances, until the truth is dealt with squarely on. So long as there is disagreement over truth, where such truths form an important foundation to healthy relationship, reconciliation isn't possible.

Such seems true of us in relation to Christ i.e., accepting Christ and truth to be reconciled to God, and it's equally true of our relationships with others, so it seems to me.

[1over137]

Am about to be baptized some day soon and now I do not wish my family to be there.
Nasty things happened, now peace. But not true peace. I decided not to speak about my baptism anymore, and maybe about my faith too.
Ok, this is Annete's thread. So no more debate over us.

[RickD]

Where is Annette, anyways?

Is she cheating on us by posting at that other online forum again?

We are her family! I hope she never forgets that!!!

[Kurieuo]

Wasn't that Nessa posting somewhere else? She probably just writes to her "Pen Pals" now. Pfft.