I haven't been a Christian very long. I'm a total beginner because I didn't come into contact with Christianity growing up. I find it difficult to keep my faith afloat. All the other Christians I know talk about God being so "real" to them.
But.. every time they say it my heart sinks. I never sense God at all. I never feel his presence. I don't have any experiences to fall back on when my faith gets shaky - I believe against all my experience tells me! I don't know if this is a good thing. Sometimes it just gets too hard and I feel so insecure because I need to know he's there and I just never feel like he is. Especially when I'm having a really bad day. When I feel like I need God most. He just... doesn't seem to be there at all. And how on earth I keep believing I do not know. Some days I just doubt absolutely everything. It's frustrating.
The people in my Church have been very kind to me and are trying to help me but they treat me like I'm not a Christian, because I guess somehow I give that impression with my lack of confidence and liquid faith.
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Has anybody else ever gone through similar feelings..? I don't really know what to do about it. I pray and pray and pray, and read the Bible as much as I can. But nothing seems to change.. God seems to be silent and invisible. Month after month I still feel as alone as ever.
Ummm. Any advice? ^_^;