Hi seedling,
seedling wrote:I'm new to this board. I had a "born again" experience at age 17 that, I have come to believe, was totally manufactured in my head. I "asked God in to my life." It was beautiful and it met my need at the time. I think all it was, was that in my heart, I basically made a decision that I would start searching for something more meaningful in my human life. After that, I basically believed that every word in the bible was the authentic written "word of God" and I took it very literally. It helped and comforted me for a long time.
What I'm getting from your words is that you've been introduced to Christianity, but you've only experienced and felt it. Have you taken a look into any rational case for Christianity? Sadly this is sometimes lacking, even frowned upon by some. However, I'd like to reassure you, take it however you may, that Christianity does infact stand on very solid rational foundations, and it is alright to have doubts, but just be sure you seek answers to them. The Internet is a great resource.
seedling wrote:But during the past year or so, I have begun reading many things, about history and science that have turned my little world upside down so to speak, and I am re-thinking many things I just took for granted and thought I "believed." I am realizing that our Creator cannot be put into a box, or into a book. Your forum interested me, because as scientists, as it seems many of you are, I thought you would be open to discussions that go "outside the box." The only thing I can honestly say I believe right now is ... I believe there is a Creator, who got the ball rolling, sparked it up and let it fly ... it just makes sense to me that some Omnipotent, Omnipresent and Omniscient force or being lit the initial fire. It seems to me he started it, then pretty much took a hands-off approach.
Actually, I'm not sure how many here are scientists

, although many here seem able to talk on many issues. If you have any doubts or questions, don't hesitate to post them and I'm sure everyone here will try to help. But don't keep your doubts hidden, that's the worst thing possible.
Additionally, I just thought I'd mention one of my favourite defenders of the Christian faith—William Lane Craig. I'd encourage you to check out the articles on his website (
http://www.leaderu.com/offices/billcraig/), and the debates he has had on God's existence. You should also be able to find many great pages on the
God and Science website.
seedling wrote:I also love Jesus. I cannot so much define who he is, or anything that the bible or Christians say about him. All I know is I am attracted to him and I love him ... I love his spirit. He is a real human being. As for being born again ... I need to think about this a bit before I can write about it. I get the sense it is a very important concept, but I'm not sure how to define it yet in my experience.
Born again simply means is that one has made the decision to ask Christ into their lives, as they want to change and desire to be with and follow Him. At such a point, the Holy Spirit comes to you, and you become spiritually born, and are able to approach God and have a relationship with Him despite your sin. That's all born again means, although the changing point can often be accompanied by strong emotions—perhaps the born again experience you are talking about?
Anyway, I hope you stay and look forward seeing more of your posts.
Kurieuo.