Prayer for my brother

[Clo_Ah]

I lost my little brother on Sunday. He called and said goodbye to everybody before committing suicide. He's my only brother and I feel so lost and guilty. I feel that I should have told him more often lately that I love him whatever he does, whatever happens. I feel I've failed him. Now I wish I were dead because I can't cope. I pray but at times the pain is so great that I feel that I am going to lose my mind. My mum is devastated. My husband too because he's a friend as well as a brother in law. I miss him dreadfully and now I tell him every minute of the day that I am sorry and that I loved him ever since mum told me I was going to have a baby bro, that I'll always love him - whether I see him or not.

I ask myself so many questions - I know God forgives us everything if we ask - and I ask myself if my bro asked for forgiveness and if he did not, if God will forgive him. I pray that he finds peace, that he finds happiness at last and that he forgives me. At times I feel as if he was hugging me - I feel at peace, I feel loved - and at times I feel that I'm going crazy.

Please pray for him.

Clo

[Daniel]

Clo_Ah, I am saying a prayer for you and your family right now. I can only imagine the combination of emotions facing you right now and as a brother in Christ, I am tremendously sorry for everything you're facing. I can tell that you're trying to maintain a biblical perspective here, and that you know that true peace comes through God, although it's FAR easier said than done, especially at a time like this. That's one of the most important steps, though, and you've taken it.

[Canuckster1127]

What a sad tragedy and I am so sorry for you, your brother and your family.

It is hard to make sense of this when it happens because there is no real sense to be found. For a while it may feel like there is only pain and grief. Yet, God is in the midst of it. Hold on to Him. Healing comes. Reach out to others too, like you have on this board, but especially the rest of your family and if you need help, find people nearby to talk with, cry with and pray with and for you.

[zoegirl]

I am so sorry to have not caught this earlier. My prayers are with you and your family.