Hi Marcella,
Sometimes the world is so fill of cr*p and terrible things that we come to end our ropes. Things happen that we do not understand. Jesus spoke that the devil comes to kill, rob, and destroy. From this we often ponder, why did God allow all this? I can give you a pat answer but what would that do? However, note this: Jesus defeated the doom and gloom that the evil one throws our way.
Kris Kristofferson sang this old song that coveys a powerful message. I used to sing this when I ran a Prison Ministry. Please read the lyrics:
Why Me Lord
by Kris Kristofferson
Why Me Lord? — What have I ever done to deserve even one of the pleasures I've known?
Tell Me Lord — What did I ever do that that was worth loving you or the kindness you've shown...
(Chorus)
Try Me Lord? — If you think there is a way I can try to repay all I've taken from you
Maybe Lord — I can show someone else what I've been through myself on my way back to you
Chorus:
Lord help me Jesus, I've wasted it
so help me Jesus I know what I am,
But now that I know that I've needed you so
Help me Jesus my soul's in your hands
When you read this line: “Maybe Lord — I can show someone else what I've been through myself on my way back to you…” and then the chorus, I pray you'll understand what I am saying.
Corre ten Boom was a woman who was brought to despair during the 1940's. She watched her sister and had her family perish in the Nazi death camps. She suffered torture in the death camps. She despaired of life. After the World War II she became renowned for preaching on the love of God. Her famous quote was this: “
Child, There is No Pit as deep that God's love is yet deeper still.”
Whatever reason for all the terrible things that happen to all of us - “Child, There is No Pit as deep that God's love is yet deeper still.”
“Maybe Lord — I can show someone else what I've been through myself on my way back to you…Lord help me Jesus, I've wasted it so help me Jesus I know what I am, But now that I know that I've needed you…so Help me Jesus my soul's in your hands”
2 Corinthians1:2-4, “
Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. 3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.” ESV
You have a purpose and a destiny that only you can fulfill in this mortal life towards others who you have not yet met as well as towards some whom you now know because: The God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God..”
I did this once. I went to a quiet place in the hills and yelled and screamed at God for all that happened to me. I never realized how angry I was at God. Then I wept. I wept for hours and left that place with the matter settled and my purpose cemented and found rest for my soul.
The Lord knows our frame that we are dust. He knows everything. Pour out your heart and feeling to him because as Jesus said in
Matthew 11:28-30 for us to: “
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." ESV
I beg you not to take harsh matters into your hands.
The Lord wants me to tell you directly this:
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Weep my child,,, Weep …You have a purpose and a destiny that only you can fulfill in this mortal life towards others who you have not yet met as well as towards some whom you now know — for now weep and find your rest. Child, There is No Pit as deep that My love is yet deeper still. For now weep and find rest for your soul...”
Now let me pray for you:
Dear Lord Jesus — hear her despair and see all the rotten things that have happened to her. I beg thee to hold her in your arms tonight - today - now - and pour out your love into her soul. Let her find that rest and weep, and you with her, so she will draw new courage and strength that comes from you. Change her path with a new unshakable hope in you. Let her draw new courage from the wells of your love so that she can fulfill what purposes you have for her to complete. She is not a loser nor at fault for things you've revealed to me that happened in her past that she has not disclosed and that she knows of. Chase away those terrible doubts and fears from the past and recent present. Lead her to a soul that has a good ear to hear and keep the phony's away (she's had enough of them and their abuses). Lord Jesus Christ -- Restrain the forces of evil and darkness that shroud her heart and mind as only you can. Give your word to this and chase these forces away from her according to your great name — Jesus Christ.
Amen-
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