So what would you recommend in that case, to open my heart to God? I already did it and nothing happen, maybe I did wrong but how can you know when “your heart is really open”?
When you know, you know. I'm not trying to sound trite or evasive. I remember you talking about the relationship and that gave me and gives me cause for concern. I remember you saying, "I'm not here to be converted." Were the motives of your heart to seek and find God, or to save a relationship? If you are motivated by feelings, I am here to tell you that your feelings can and will mislead you. Faith in Christ is not about being led around by your nose by goosebumps, and butterflies. I can't weigh the motives of your heart, but there is enough I've learned in our dialogue to know that you think there is some magic formula, or incantation to say and then, boom! Sorry, it doesn't work like that.
Do you expect to bow down, say something, and then all of the sudden 'feel' the right way?? It doesn't work that way. Anyway, you are not going to bow down to something or someone you don't really believe is there. It is not about how hard you "tried." Trying sounds like a noble thing. But it is a far cry from trusting.
how can you know when “your heart is really open”?
Not calling yourself an atheist would be a good start. Next would be studying Jesus' message. That means leaving behind 'religion,' and begin sorting through what you know or think you know about Jesus. It means questioning with as much aggression the positions that have influenced you to reject God, as you have the faith positions themselves.
I'm confident in this. The bible says, "Whoever seeks Me with their whole heart, will seek Me and find Me." That is either true or bunk. I can't exactly say what "finding God," will mean for you. But I am fairly certain it will not be motivated by something as fleeting and unpredictable as feelings. And I am not saying that God can not use feelings. He can.
"Whoever calls upon the name of the Lord WILL be saved." That is an easy verse to say. However, it is not so easy to understand how a person arrives at the point where they will call out. This isn't an experiment. No one calls on the Lord unless He believes He
"is" . No one calls out to be saved, unless they know they are in peril.
If your heart is open, let loose of this world. It has nothing to offer you but a grave. It is interesting that the world you cling to, can only tell you that you are a meaningless accident. A biological anomaly on a spec of dust in a moment of time. Anything else is a lie and an illusion. The world offers you nothing.
Christianity says that Manfer is valued. That your very life has meaning rooted from the beginning of time. That you were born out of the dreams of God. And that this God, who by your own admission, shouldn't give you any notice, is intimately concerned with you. He even knew in advance that you would mock His gift, and say it lacked meaning. And knowing this, He still bled and died, and raised again, for you. And this is the truth I live out of. And that is why you are valuable to me. And my prayer is that you will come to know how valuable you are.
-“The Bible treated allegorically becomes putty in the hands of the exegete.” John Walvoord
"I'm not saying scientists don't overstate their results. They do. And it's understandable, too...If you spend years working toward a certain goal and make no progress, of course you are going to spin your results in a positive light." Ivellious