catherine wrote:B.W, I think I might be one of the ones who are called but not chosen Matt 22:14. I pray to Jesus and ask Him if He is real and to let me know He is real and He has forgiven me etc, but I never feel any different or 'understand' that I am forgiven. (I tell him I've got a hard heart that needs to be replaced). I usually get fed up of not feeling forgiven and then I 'give up' on Him - for a while, until I'm drawn back to Him. It's a vicious circle. I then think, maybe it's all a load of baloney or maybe I'm not forgiven. I've been like this for the last twenty four or so years. I can't be born again if I don't even know I'm redeemed.
Hi Catharine,
You said you prayed and asked if Jesus was real — well -
the answer to your prayers is before your very eyes. You were drawn here to this forum in answer to your prayer for a reason. You can be assured that you can be one of the chosen, as you put it, and forgiven.
He led you here and cannot you see how he's been gently chipping away at your own hard heart that you yourself admit to having through our words written on this forum too you? He trying to tell you, “yes child, come home, you are accepted in the beloved"”
With evidence like this, why delay any longer! He is in the business of replacing hearts and this replacement takes time and much grace to accomplish. That is part of the Christian experience and journey that assures us of our salvation —
he will not let us go. We may at times feel forsaken but he will never forsake us. Therefore, Let me simplify what faith means so you can better grasps what it means to place your faith in Christ as you seem not to be sure about what faith is.
Faith is how we become fully, completely, convinced, assured, persuaded to unite ourselves with something or someone so much so that you devote yourself to what you place such faith in. Faith is not the same thing as believing in Santa Clause because faith attaches oneself — commits to become united too something or someone that removes doubt and fears producing loyalty, fidelity, united into what you place faith in.
Christian Faith in Christ is our uniting ourselves to the risen Christ because we have become fully completely, convinced, assured, persuaded to unite ourselves with His Love and grace. That if we confess our sins, he will change our very lives inwardly so much so that outwardly it shows. People have the wrong idea of God's Love (Agape in Greek). God's Agape Love cherishes, nurtures, fosters in order to unite and bond together in unity of mind, will, and purpose.
His Love is not unbiased, nor is it unconditionally tolerant. God's love - cherishes, nurtures, fosters in order to unite and bond together in unity of mind, will, and purpose. That is why Jesus came to unite us back to God and become transformed in the renewing of heart and mind. Through Christ work on the cross he exposed sin and its power that separates us from God.
When God speaks to us, he reveals and exposes what sin is doing and its power in our lives so much so that His Love leaves to us a choice.
Who do you love more? Self, Sin. Or the Lord who pleads, not forces, for you to become reunited with him? Without that choice, without respecting a person's decision, love could not be love.
That is the idea behind cherishing, nurturing, fostering — which defines
Agape Love which respects and honors a person's decision — even the wrong ones. That kind of Justice from such Love as this is supreme. Sin will not go unpunished as it takes advantage of God's cherishing, nurturing, fostering — misusing his grace as the means to game God to act contrary to himself. A person rejecting such love - love must reject or it is not love because if not, love would cease being love as it lacks fortitude of justice required for love to be love.
Those that choose sin and self over his call of grace will be held to account for slighting God's Love. What is Love to do except act justly with perfect justice giving them separation from God's own love (meaning His cherishing, nurturing, fostering nature) as that is what they desire more than being united back to God and transformed into a new creation in Christ. They want not his cherishing, nurturing, or fostering in this mortal life, why would they want it in the hereafter as they only would exploit it as they did so on earth?
What you describe as a
vicious circle of
not knowing for sure is based on feelings and not on the kind of faith that that is fully persuaded, convinced to become united to Christ so much so that you devote yourself to what you place such faith in — Christ - To become transformed into his new creation despite pains and doubts caused by having your heart cleansed and sins exposed.
Do you want Christ to change you — to fully and completely foster, nurture, cherish you that you rediscover your purpose for life becoming progressively untied to his will, purpose, and mind?
He has drawn you here because you prayed. He has begun to chip away at your own hard heart. Make that commitment - faith — in him. Don't try to feel saved —
be saved! Trust in Christ's finished work on the cross that forgives those that place their faith in him to be forgiven and transformed into a new person.
I pull no punches, I speak from my own experience; such transformation can be painful but let me assure you it is like having a festering splinter removed from your heart. Once it is gone — it is gone. From such lessons is how we Christians know for a fact, certaincy, that God is real as he does the change within us and that work is not of our own doing, it's his called grace.
Such work takes time with much fostering, nurture, from God to mold us to become united to him in mind, will, and purpose. People mock Christians during their times of transformations out of darkness into his marvelous light because they only see sin, they themselves have, and not the end intended by God that He has for the repentant.
Such change is necessary for us to know God and be restored from the condition which lost this. It begins by saying —
I will place my faith in his work and devote myself to him no matter the cost. In this you'll discover and begin to walk into the meaning and purpose of life the Lord intended.
I will begin a short prayer for you but you must fill in the rest from your own heart alone before God. You may have feelings, emotions, or none of these. What you will have is a fixed mind on Christ, a determination (faith) to become united to him in will, purpose, and mind no matter the cost, no matter the feelings, no matter what that cries out to the Lord as he passes by -
I am touching the hem of his garment and I will not let go!
So pray:
Father, I prayed before to know you and be forgiven but I don't feel a thing and thought you abandoned me. You led me here to this crazy forum where I met some rather odd and interesting persons who took the time to tell me a bit more about you. So I am placing my faith and my life into your hands — forgive me of all my sins that robbed from me so much...
(Now speak from your own heart on your own for however long - before continuing)
I want to return to you and become born again. I do not understand everything — but fill me with your Spirit and make be born again as I have become fully convince that only your work on the cross can save me from myself — I devote myself to you despite what I feel or how I feel. Lead me to a solid Church and not to flakes so I can learn more of you and become transformed...
(Now speak from your own heart on your own for however long - before continuing)
Keep the evil one off my back and protect me. Change my heart to become as yours — cherishing, nurturing, fostering and never let me go! Let me experience thy great love! and please let me know I am redeemed!...
(Now speak from your own heart on your own for however long - before continuing)
Seal me with thy Spirit forever!
Amen
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