Posted: Wed Nov 16, 2005 12:19 pm
Thank you for your wise words, BGood. Your report of your constant activities make me feel all the more lazy and bummish, but yet it encourages me in that it reminds me of something I used to know. It is that I seem to be disatisfied with how my time is used whether I am busy or lazy. When I'm busy I feel that all my time is being wasted on things that don't matter, and when I'm lazy I feel that I'm wasting my time on nothing. Taken like that you can't help but conclude that if one is to waste time at all it is better wasted doing nothing, so that at least you're doing what you want with it and have a say in the matter.
However, the ideal would be, of course, to not waste time at all. But that would mean doing something worthwhile with your time, and I... I'm not sure. I do not want to start working like mad to do some good with my life and have it not be in line with God's plan for my life. I wait on Him to present to me things that I feel are worth something. And it has worked out quite splendidly this way for years, really.
I guess that I'm more disatisfied than I would be if I hadn't forgotten another basic truth- that God uses the seemingly pointless times in our life to prepare us for the other times, times when He uses us as instruments to create everlasting precious gems. Just as sleep is conductive to wakefulness, so can seeming inactivity be to activity. Also is the truth that the work insn't near so important to God as the worker. It is to my shame that I have forgotten such important rules to the game! They are excellent to have in your conscious grip; it is a good thing to remember them.
Now, what was the whole point of all this? Right, I was just babbling about my thoughts and feelings on my current lot in life. And why, just last week God spoke to me about the whole thing reminding me that the times of perserverance are for the express intent of creating character. When I was so graciously reminded of that, another sadly forgotten truth, it was in regards to my disatisfaction with hardships I'm facing right now. But in fact, this bumming around thing is indeed a part of those hardships, which I hadn't recognized 'til just now. Silly Katie, open your eyes and stop forgetting what you need to remember!
So I can conclude, then, after all this review, that everything is a-okay, and just as it should be. I'm relying on God for my every step, and no, I haven't missed any. I must continue to trust Him and look to His will while sacrificing my own, and then, despite whatever doubts I may have, I will always be on the path I'm supposed to.
Thank you BGood for helping me open my eyes! I'm feeling much better now.
However, the ideal would be, of course, to not waste time at all. But that would mean doing something worthwhile with your time, and I... I'm not sure. I do not want to start working like mad to do some good with my life and have it not be in line with God's plan for my life. I wait on Him to present to me things that I feel are worth something. And it has worked out quite splendidly this way for years, really.
I guess that I'm more disatisfied than I would be if I hadn't forgotten another basic truth- that God uses the seemingly pointless times in our life to prepare us for the other times, times when He uses us as instruments to create everlasting precious gems. Just as sleep is conductive to wakefulness, so can seeming inactivity be to activity. Also is the truth that the work insn't near so important to God as the worker. It is to my shame that I have forgotten such important rules to the game! They are excellent to have in your conscious grip; it is a good thing to remember them.
Now, what was the whole point of all this? Right, I was just babbling about my thoughts and feelings on my current lot in life. And why, just last week God spoke to me about the whole thing reminding me that the times of perserverance are for the express intent of creating character. When I was so graciously reminded of that, another sadly forgotten truth, it was in regards to my disatisfaction with hardships I'm facing right now. But in fact, this bumming around thing is indeed a part of those hardships, which I hadn't recognized 'til just now. Silly Katie, open your eyes and stop forgetting what you need to remember!
So I can conclude, then, after all this review, that everything is a-okay, and just as it should be. I'm relying on God for my every step, and no, I haven't missed any. I must continue to trust Him and look to His will while sacrificing my own, and then, despite whatever doubts I may have, I will always be on the path I'm supposed to.
Thank you BGood for helping me open my eyes! I'm feeling much better now.
