oh look! its funnys cousin....not funnyRickD wrote:Hey Nessa,Nessa wrote:mallz....malcom....Mallz wrote:lol no. Where did that come from?hey is your name malcom?
Is your name David S. Stones?
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oh look! its funnys cousin....not funnyRickD wrote:Hey Nessa,Nessa wrote:mallz....malcom....Mallz wrote:lol no. Where did that come from?hey is your name malcom?
Is your name David S. Stones?
Let me highlight it for you.Nessa wrote:In the last few months i have had neck spams and tightness when i turn my head to the right....so if i sit on your right i think we will both be ok to talk to each other without painKurieuo wrote:Yes, I find it difficult turning my head to the left now because it feels strained.
Not that anyone really notices, but some people have probably felt snubbed because they sat on my left side at the table.
I just can't turn my head to the left like I can the right. Too much Stemetil and Panadol. Made my neck go all stiff and spasm when I was a teenager. Think it tore a muscle or something in my neck.
If you want to have a conversation with me at the table then you've got to sit on my right-hand side.
And if you sit on my left don't be offended if I don't talk to you as much as the person on my right.
but what the heck does that have to do with suicide? I kept waiting for the connection but it just never came![]()
No, I just found them in the cupboard and took what I could.Nessa wrote:I just looked up Stemetil.. its for nausea and vomiting or Psychiatric problems...
So the doctor obviously prescribed you that?
ok not asking questions, for me , is like not breathing *gasp* so maybe just one little question....Nessa wrote:So many questions.. but I will refrain.. THIS time
I didn't want to play life.Nessa wrote:ok not asking questions, for me , is like not breathing *gasp* so maybe just one little question....Nessa wrote:So many questions.. but I will refrain.. THIS time
what led up to the pill incident?
Alright, I mean there were issues I had to overcome as a child, OCD and the like...Nessa wrote:what was your life like back then?
Feeling beforehand? That I didn't want to be one of those who thought about it and didn't do it.Nessa wrote:what were you feeling? what happened afterward?
what was the ocd like do you still struggle? my sister had or has that.....while i got the anxiety disorder...tho both are from the same tree i believe...just different branchesKurieuo wrote:I didn't want to play life.9Nessa wrote:ok not asking questions, for me , is like not breathing *gasp* so maybe just one little question....Nessa wrote:So many questions.. but I will refrain.. THIS time
what led up to the pill incident?
Alright, I mean there were issues I had to overcome as a child, OCD and the like...Nessa wrote:what was your life like back then?
but, I just thought it'd be much better being with God.
Selfish I suppose, but as described elsewhere, I just didn't like the world or want to be part of it.
There is only one way we can fully remove our self from the world.
Feeling beforehand? That I didn't want to be one of those who thought about it and didn't do it.Nessa wrote:what were you feeling? what happened afterward?
The only thought was whether God would reject me for such an act, but I believed Christ had my back and would understand. So I was more concerned about that!
Understand it wasn't so much a question of why, but why not?
Afterward, I went to sleep the most peaceful I'd ever been.
Woke up sick as a dog puking my guts up. Mum saw the cabinet open, empty packets on the bench and put two and two together.
Took me to hospital and they wanted to commit me and place me under observation. Instead was able to she a family shrink.
My neck spasmed during the session, and my head just wanted to turn to the right. I was trying to force it to the left, but I couldn't.
Eventually given an injection that countered the effects.
That was all when I was 14 years old. So 20 something years on now...
Overlooking your other questions for now (as limited time),Nessa wrote:https://youtu.be/OUOrfzySIQM
Yep..know exactly what you mean..sigh..Kurieuo wrote:
Nothing would please me more than the privilege to appropriately lay down my life for Christ as he did me.
Sometimes it feels hopeless. That's I'm a poor excuse of a Christian and should be doing something more.
I just pray when I depart from the world that I'll have done something great for Christ than living a mundane life, especially since that's kind of the reason I chose to live. Sounds all great right, but often I feel inadequate, hopeless and that I'm not living the life I should