Have I ever told a lie? Yes, I have. As a kid I should have been a fiction writer, I have a marvelous imagination and could talk my way out of anything. I don't think as an adult that dishonesty is a major problem with me. I bend the truth on occasion which is in effect the same as telling a lie. I am not as yet the righteous type, but I am working on it. I have not been keeping God's laws as I should, but having read what I have read, I am not sure that man is capable of keeping God's laws to any realistic degree. Just my opinion.
1st.: time does not forgive sin. What you are doing is called trying to justify yourself.
This is not about you doing your best to keep God's laws. You and I and everyone have already failed at that. (Romans 3:23) Even if you kept God's law perfectly from now on, it would not make up for your past sins. If you stood before a judge accused of a serious crime, and you said, "but I've been really good most of my life, and that should make up for my crime." The judge will say that has no bearing on the crime you are on trial for. Gaining righteousness is not about trying to balance the scales of good and evil.
The simple truth if we follow the scriptures is this: What are you called if you lie? A liar. And this is how God sees you. If you have stolen, God sees you as a lying thief. Jesus said if you have anger without cause, then you have murder in your heart. (Matt. 5) In fact the bible teaches that even our thoughts will come under judgment. You see God is good and just. And it is because He is good and just that He will see to it that all murderers, theives and liars will be brought to justice. What kind of judge let's a criminal walk free without justice being served? Heaven is not a place of sinners, but of the righteous.
If God were to judge you according to His standard, would you be innocent or guilty? if we are honest with ourselves we know we would be guilty. You said the lies of your youth are too many to mention, and it is obvious that you don't give much thought to the way God sees lying. Here is what the Bible says. "Lying lips are an abomination to the Lord," Prov. 12:22
In John 8 Jesus calls Satan the Father of lies.
"A false witness will not go unpunished, and he who tells lies will perish" (Prov. 19:9).
"There are six things the LORD hates — no, seven things He detests: haughty eyes, a
lying tongue, hands that kill the innocent, a heart that plots evil, feet that race to do wrong,
a false witness who pours out lies, a person who sows discord among brothers." (Proverbs 6:16-19)
You need to see yourself in light of God's word. It is no wonder you have so many problems with God's Word. Many people have a problem discerning God's word because they are enemies of God in their minds by wicked works. (Col 1:21)
The Word of God when rightly divided is able to show us our sinful nature for what it really is. "For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow;
it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart." Heb. 4:12
I am not sure that man is capable of keeping God's laws to any realistic degree. Just my opinion.
That is good, because you agree with the bible. Rom. 3:10
But God does not grade on a curve. It is not OK to lie because I have lied, or everyone else has lied. That just means everyone is a liar. If everyone was a murderer would that somehow make murder less evil??
i hope you will give serious thought to these things and continue to examine how God sees you in light of what is revealed in His Word. It is imperative. What good does it do to admit to God you are a sinner if you really have no biblical concept of what a sinner really is, and who it is you have sinned against?
Loving and praying for you Wconn. Joel