Re: Making the right choice
Posted: Sat Jun 29, 2013 10:54 pm
Charles,
Thank you for presenting your thoughtful, heartfelt questions to us, and for your gracious responses. Please understand that we are most often inundated not with sincere questions from sincere seekers, but with attacks from interlocutors; and that after a while we can sometimes grow hyper-vigilant and bristle even when someone comes along crying out from his heart, as you have done here. Thank you for your patience in enduring. I don't know if God sent you to us or not, but I pray that he speaks understanding and peace to you, whether through us or someone else.
I don't know that I could add much more to what has already been said, but I will say this: It appears to me as though you know what is true. You know in your heart that Jesus is God, that not only does He love you and that His claims were true, but that He IS Love, and that he IS Truth. From your words I sense that what is in your heart is not the question, "Is Christianity true?" What is in your heart is the question, "Why, God, why?" You are not alone in your pain. As Jac mentioned, God knows this pain better than any of us. You weep bitterly for your son, you cry out for him; God weeps for all of His lost sons and daughters. Recall that shortest verse in all the scriptures: "Jesus wept." He wept at the death of His friend; He wept at the pain those before him endured; He wept with the knowledge that He could speak this man-- and all men-- back to life again. Do not be angry at God; be angry WITH God. Pray to Him; weep with Him. "Hear my prayer, oh Lord, and let my cry come unto thee."
With regard to your questions, people of different theological schools will answer it in different ways. I don't know what is the "correct" answer, or even the most emotionally satisfying answer. Really, none of us know for sure who will be saved and who won't. The Bible pretty much tells us to expect a few surprises as far as that goes. Nobody who otherwise might be saved will be condemned because God's hand was too short to reach him. God knows what is in our hearts, and we will be judged on that basis, not on the basis of who said the right words or the right prayer. Those who love Him and seek after Him will be saved. Perhaps God's actual soteriology will be much more "inclusive" than many of us tend to think, but that really doesn't matter much with respect to where you go from here. God has revealed the truth to you, and you can sense the scales falling from your eyes. You must follow what you know to be true, and trust Him to guide you (easier said than done, if you're half as stubborn as I am!).
You mention that your son ultimately rejected Christ because of this very same difficulty, and then (and here is the key) he consumed much atheist propaganda. Why consume atheist propaganda if you've already rejected theism? We continue to read and learn about God after we have accepted Him in order to better know Him, understand Him, love Him, to grow spiritually in Him. Why does one read and learn about unbelief after one has already decided on the point? To better understand Nothing? To grow in unbelief? What is the point? It is no longer a search for truth; it is then an attempt to justify oneself in one's decision. It is not a reasoned rejection of one idea in favor of another, it is an angry rejection with reason being ruled by passion (Which, neuropsychologically, is how we tend to make most of our decisions). I suspect that deep down your son knows what is true, just as you do, and is doing all he can to run from it. Your son is hardening his heart against God, but the good news is that his rage against God indicates that he still cares. As you grow in Christ, your son will see His love in you. He may be running away from God now, but when he returns God will run to him to embrace him; just as He weeps with you now, he will weep tears of joy with you then.
In the end, atheism leads to all kinds of absurd conclusions and is ultimately unlivable in any kind of consistent way. If your son cares about the truth at all he will eventually come to see that, but ultimately it is Christ's love that will melt his heart. And so it is with all of us.
May God bless you and keep you, Charles. Please continue to seek Him, with all your heart and all your mind and all your soul. You will be rewarded in ways you never though imaginable.
Thank you for presenting your thoughtful, heartfelt questions to us, and for your gracious responses. Please understand that we are most often inundated not with sincere questions from sincere seekers, but with attacks from interlocutors; and that after a while we can sometimes grow hyper-vigilant and bristle even when someone comes along crying out from his heart, as you have done here. Thank you for your patience in enduring. I don't know if God sent you to us or not, but I pray that he speaks understanding and peace to you, whether through us or someone else.
I don't know that I could add much more to what has already been said, but I will say this: It appears to me as though you know what is true. You know in your heart that Jesus is God, that not only does He love you and that His claims were true, but that He IS Love, and that he IS Truth. From your words I sense that what is in your heart is not the question, "Is Christianity true?" What is in your heart is the question, "Why, God, why?" You are not alone in your pain. As Jac mentioned, God knows this pain better than any of us. You weep bitterly for your son, you cry out for him; God weeps for all of His lost sons and daughters. Recall that shortest verse in all the scriptures: "Jesus wept." He wept at the death of His friend; He wept at the pain those before him endured; He wept with the knowledge that He could speak this man-- and all men-- back to life again. Do not be angry at God; be angry WITH God. Pray to Him; weep with Him. "Hear my prayer, oh Lord, and let my cry come unto thee."
With regard to your questions, people of different theological schools will answer it in different ways. I don't know what is the "correct" answer, or even the most emotionally satisfying answer. Really, none of us know for sure who will be saved and who won't. The Bible pretty much tells us to expect a few surprises as far as that goes. Nobody who otherwise might be saved will be condemned because God's hand was too short to reach him. God knows what is in our hearts, and we will be judged on that basis, not on the basis of who said the right words or the right prayer. Those who love Him and seek after Him will be saved. Perhaps God's actual soteriology will be much more "inclusive" than many of us tend to think, but that really doesn't matter much with respect to where you go from here. God has revealed the truth to you, and you can sense the scales falling from your eyes. You must follow what you know to be true, and trust Him to guide you (easier said than done, if you're half as stubborn as I am!).
You mention that your son ultimately rejected Christ because of this very same difficulty, and then (and here is the key) he consumed much atheist propaganda. Why consume atheist propaganda if you've already rejected theism? We continue to read and learn about God after we have accepted Him in order to better know Him, understand Him, love Him, to grow spiritually in Him. Why does one read and learn about unbelief after one has already decided on the point? To better understand Nothing? To grow in unbelief? What is the point? It is no longer a search for truth; it is then an attempt to justify oneself in one's decision. It is not a reasoned rejection of one idea in favor of another, it is an angry rejection with reason being ruled by passion (Which, neuropsychologically, is how we tend to make most of our decisions). I suspect that deep down your son knows what is true, just as you do, and is doing all he can to run from it. Your son is hardening his heart against God, but the good news is that his rage against God indicates that he still cares. As you grow in Christ, your son will see His love in you. He may be running away from God now, but when he returns God will run to him to embrace him; just as He weeps with you now, he will weep tears of joy with you then.
In the end, atheism leads to all kinds of absurd conclusions and is ultimately unlivable in any kind of consistent way. If your son cares about the truth at all he will eventually come to see that, but ultimately it is Christ's love that will melt his heart. And so it is with all of us.
May God bless you and keep you, Charles. Please continue to seek Him, with all your heart and all your mind and all your soul. You will be rewarded in ways you never though imaginable.