Page 24 of 35
Re: My journey
Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 1:08 am
by Nicki
Storyteller wrote:I will always return to the fold
I just needed a little time alone with God.
I have finally given in and handed all my pain and anger to God to deal with. Ive finally accepted God loves me, now, as i am, how I was and how i will be.
I feel liberated and safe. Loved.
Everything I am, I owe to God. All this time He was there, waiting for me to run into His arms. I thought I knew Christ, God. Guess I did, I just didnt totally surrender. Now. I have, and it feels utterly awesome.
How are things with the books and the husband?
Re: My journey
Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 3:48 am
by Storyteller
Closed the shop down, brought shelving and books home to sell from home. Have a part time job now, too, which I love, needed.
Hubbs is still thinking of splittingwhen little one is old enough (no word on when that might be) but daily lifeis smoother xand im not giving up on him, or my marraige, not yet anyway.
I have stopped worrying about the future, confident that whatever transpires will be with God at my side.
Re: My journey
Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 8:00 am
by Byblos
We lift you up in prayers Annette, stay strong.
Re: My journey
Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 9:07 am
by Storyteller
Thank you Byblos, its very much appreciated.
I think that I have learnt that I cannotcontrol, or predict the future but I can control today.
I am letting God take care of it all while doing my best to follow Him.
I am in control of my drinking, have a little job, I forgot the anti depressants
(seems daft to start taking them now) and I really do feel strengthened by Christ, and all of you.
I never dreamed quite how startling and wonderful it would be to really accept, feel and recognise Christ. Nor quite how awesome it is to learn that other people see Him working in me, already.
Re: My journey
Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 10:40 am
by Byblos
For the first time I notice the quote in your signature line. I see you're fond of Khalil Gibran, no doubt you've read some of his literary work. Did you know he was quite an accomplished artist/painter as well? I've been to his childhood hometown a number of times, where there's a small museum dedicated to his works. Really good stuff, some can be seen
here.
Re: My journey
Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2016 11:09 am
by Storyteller
Great site, not seen his art before.
Thank you xx
Re: My journey
Posted: Thu Jun 16, 2016 10:37 pm
by 1over137
Annete,
am so happy for you that things in your life are improving.
And the most importantly, your inner being.
God is awesome.
Love,
Hana
Re: My journey
Posted: Fri Jun 17, 2016 3:23 pm
by Storyteller
Hana,
Been thinking about you a lot recently. Praying hard for you and Tomas. You inspire me.
Yes.
God is awesome.
Love,
Annette
x
Re: My journey
Posted: Sat Jun 18, 2016 5:11 am
by 1over137
Re: My journey
Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2016 3:27 pm
by Storyteller
Truth be known, ihave no words to describe this.
This love.
Validation, acceptance, revelation.
Truth.
Pain.
Really? No. The pain is in the denial.
Or maybe, the acceptance, that we cant do it alone.
Or, in fact, at all.
Re: My journey
Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2016 3:31 pm
by Storyteller
I feel...
peaceful yet unsettled, kinda, actually nah, I feel peace, and love.
I feel validated, loved, secure, and safe.
In God.
There is still that little demon going, are you sure?
But yeah, praise God, I am. Sure.
Re: My journey
Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2016 4:18 pm
by abelcainsbrother
Storyteller wrote:I feel...
peaceful yet unsettled, kinda, actually nah, I feel peace, and love.
I feel validated, loved, secure, and safe.
In God.
There is still that little demon going, are you sure?
But yeah, praise God, I am. Sure.
I Believe In Christ. For you
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKmaALRWZbc
Re: My journey
Posted: Thu Jun 30, 2016 5:29 am
by Storyteller
I actually liked that.
As an aside, anyone heard of a group called Delirious? I could sing of your love forever was big over in America. They started out here, in my home town, at a local church.
Anyway....
Life is good right now, God is working in me and I can see some healing taking place. The verse K quoted (in the shacked up couple thread) resonated deeply with me.
The more I lean on, and trust, and ask of God the more I see Him working.
There are no words to express the wonder I feel at actually, really seeing results of loving and trying to honour God.
Re: My journey
Posted: Thu Jun 30, 2016 8:27 am
by Nicki
Yes, I remember Delirious - I saw them play at a big music festival in New Zealand. We sang that song a lot at church back then. I should look them up and see what else they've done - perhaps break up? IDK
Re: My journey
Posted: Thu Jun 30, 2016 9:28 am
by Storyteller
According to wikipedia, they officially disbanded in 2009 but they still play live.
Saw them years ago playing on our beach.