Okay, time for something different from me for a change. Recently I have been really, really, worried that I am failing to be a follower of Christ and I am very scared of
these verses which really makes it seem impossible to be accepted into heaven because there are WAY to many rules to follow. Yes, I know, I am not perfect, but I try to be the best I can be, and there is a verse that says fearing God is the beginning of wisdom, and yes, I have much fear. Too much it seems, that I get a lot of anxiety. How does anyone, taking the Bible in whole, make it to heaven? I am not in it for just that, but I also want to exhibit the things that Christians further in their walk have, which I don't have much. I was saved on 2/11/1995, with limited understanding of Christ, but my mom assisting me told me that I was genuine about it and sincere. During those years after, I didn't really bear much fruit because I had a lot of sin I was consistently living in. Almost 2 years now, I have taken Christianity more serious but I am still not going to a church because I don't know any that speaks true truth from the Bible, and I rarely read the Bible. My faith in Christ is very minimal as I am still trying to believe that he died for all my sins but I keep reaching "what ifs" and things like He didn't die for all my sins, and my sins are bad enough as it is and have done it long enough that He doesn't care and therefore He did not die for my sins. I know He exists, but part of me flat out denies it. Anyways, this thread that I started is a work in progress with progress notes, in the meantime, click
here to understand some of my frustration. I just need the basics, without getting into deep doctrine, theology, and apologetics that seems to happen a lot here. What does it take? Many will not go to Heaven, so how then do you get there besides having faith (even if it is as small as a mustard seed) in Christ? I mean, I had a thread up on blasphemy of the Holy Spirit which happened to me as the result I believe as a spiritual attack, but we are supposed to only stick to the Bible and nothing else, does doctrine, theology, apologetics need not apply then and I am doomed?
Wanted to add this quote here from Mystical, because I feel I relate to all of what is quoted:
[u][b]Mystical[/b][/u] wrote:What does being saved feel like? Is there any scripture which describes it? Is one really saved without a demonstration of works? Is one really saved without a change in character? Does joy have to accompany salvation? Is salvation accompanied by an immediate feeling of joy? If you are saved, how do you know?
And this:
17 WAYS THAT CANNOT SAVE YOU