Lost myself with our Lord Jesus..too late to change?
Posted: Mon Feb 13, 2006 1:22 pm
Brothers and Sisters in Jesus Christ,
My Story...
I found myself a believer in 1995 (Sembach, Germany USAF active duty).
I found joy and happiness with Our Lord Jesus. I was able to fellowship and attend Christian services, My new found faith in Jesus was blossoming and I felt my life was new.
Previous to 1995, I was adopted from the Philippines at the age of 7 and started my life in America in a loving home. My father was second generation Italian and my mother was Hungarian (Born in Budapest). Both were devout Catholics and, raised me Catholic. I always had a trust that there was a God and a powerful being, but I never felt comfortable with the Catholic faith. I think my unconscious mind was always on lookout for a more fulfilling experience with God through Jesus.
When I joined the United States Air Force ( I tried college but was a party animal) My need for Jesus and his glorious salvation was apparent but like all sinners I had my "sin-glasses" on. I had forgotten about Jesus and was partying (sinning)my way through Europe. In 1996 I met christian friends who introduced me to a new way of life. My fellowship with them was special and I realized in my heart certain truths. I Loved Jesus and realized my sinful ways. I repented, prayed and asked for Jesus to be part of my life. I prayed daily and immersed myself in the holy word of God (reading the bible).
Now...
Years later...
I'm Now married with 2 children (3 yr-girl and 6yr-boy) and living in Utah. I find myself once again thirsty for Our Saviour Jesus. Some how, during 1996 to 2005 I had forgotten our lord I stopped praying didn't even look for a place to fellowship with other Christians and trapped myself in sin after sin.
I finally realized what I was doing and am giving myself 100% effort in righting myself with the Lord Jesus. I know it can only be done with HIS help and loving mercy. I feel I have been the seed who has heard the word of salvation and grew until the thorns of the earth came and choked me.
I feel so awful for all those prayers way back in 1995 promising Jesus I would change and now many years later, I failed miserably.
Here is my questions...
Can salvation be lost?
--I have prayed to our Jesus to come back to his goodness and mercy
--I want to come back to the light and call myself a Christian again.
I have so much to be thankful for and, being adopted at 7 years old to a loving family is a testament.
-Utah Extreme
Hungry and Thirsty for Jesus
My Story...
I found myself a believer in 1995 (Sembach, Germany USAF active duty).
I found joy and happiness with Our Lord Jesus. I was able to fellowship and attend Christian services, My new found faith in Jesus was blossoming and I felt my life was new.
Previous to 1995, I was adopted from the Philippines at the age of 7 and started my life in America in a loving home. My father was second generation Italian and my mother was Hungarian (Born in Budapest). Both were devout Catholics and, raised me Catholic. I always had a trust that there was a God and a powerful being, but I never felt comfortable with the Catholic faith. I think my unconscious mind was always on lookout for a more fulfilling experience with God through Jesus.
When I joined the United States Air Force ( I tried college but was a party animal) My need for Jesus and his glorious salvation was apparent but like all sinners I had my "sin-glasses" on. I had forgotten about Jesus and was partying (sinning)my way through Europe. In 1996 I met christian friends who introduced me to a new way of life. My fellowship with them was special and I realized in my heart certain truths. I Loved Jesus and realized my sinful ways. I repented, prayed and asked for Jesus to be part of my life. I prayed daily and immersed myself in the holy word of God (reading the bible).
Now...
Years later...
I'm Now married with 2 children (3 yr-girl and 6yr-boy) and living in Utah. I find myself once again thirsty for Our Saviour Jesus. Some how, during 1996 to 2005 I had forgotten our lord I stopped praying didn't even look for a place to fellowship with other Christians and trapped myself in sin after sin.
I finally realized what I was doing and am giving myself 100% effort in righting myself with the Lord Jesus. I know it can only be done with HIS help and loving mercy. I feel I have been the seed who has heard the word of salvation and grew until the thorns of the earth came and choked me.
I feel so awful for all those prayers way back in 1995 promising Jesus I would change and now many years later, I failed miserably.
Here is my questions...
Can salvation be lost?
--I have prayed to our Jesus to come back to his goodness and mercy
--I want to come back to the light and call myself a Christian again.
I have so much to be thankful for and, being adopted at 7 years old to a loving family is a testament.
-Utah Extreme
Hungry and Thirsty for Jesus