Please help me *read please*
Posted: Tue Dec 28, 2004 12:04 am
Hi, I am new here. I need help from Christians.... the worldly view on this is not the truth.
I have a problem, I am a computer geek which feels at home at the PC I have been a Christian for a very long time and for my whole life i have struggled with masturbation. This is hard for me to talk about, but my from the time I was a we lad i have screwed up. I am a Christian, meaning i believe Jesus died on the cross for my sins, and i feel guilt when i masturbate... I feel stupid coming to this forum and asking for help...
I really need someones help, recently i was browsing the internet at sites that don't have bad content, and was browsing a forum, I saw a picture that aroused me... i continued to look and lust after it. I still was continuing to screw up praying to God to forgive me, but each day after i would continue to do that exact same thing... but its getting worse, now i am looking at the g00gle search page and typing stuff that will bring *bad* pictures up... I KNOW ITS WRONG I SHOULDN'T LOOK.... i cant control it, I ask for forgiveness and then i feel intimate with God, and the next day I frickin' do it again... I am so tired of this, no matter what i do, i end up masturbating and looking at things i shouldn't, I Want to STOP---> I cant control it and i need guidance from a Christian which can guide me through the Bible and help me.... I am desperate, i am so tired of sinning, confessing, freaking doing it again thinking (i'll be forgiven... this chance may only come once... or I just cant control it) I pray to God through His Son and ask forgiveness, but i dont understand why I continue to FAIL THE FREAKING NEXT DAY, i mean everything i read in the Bible that is against it is just gone and i do it.... there is a little voice, very little voice telling me i shouldn't... but a bigger voice says "this may be the only time something like this comes along" or it says "hey, if I do it this time, i should be able to hold off" i cant even control myself for more than 1 week--- i am very embarrassed about this
I need serious prayer and guidance... i need accountability---->
I CANT CONTROL MYSELF my lust, my self-pleasuring, and my adultery *i dont have a wife, so i dont know exactly what looking at bad pictures would be, but i know its bad*
Someone please, please help me out... I need help
I am righting this, because i have gone to far... i cant control it please, please pray for me
Right now i am crying, and feel so depressed.... and you know what will end up happening tomorrow, i will fail again, and again, and again...
i don't even know why God has me on earth, all i do is freaking screw it up... please, please someone help me
I have a problem, I am a computer geek which feels at home at the PC I have been a Christian for a very long time and for my whole life i have struggled with masturbation. This is hard for me to talk about, but my from the time I was a we lad i have screwed up. I am a Christian, meaning i believe Jesus died on the cross for my sins, and i feel guilt when i masturbate... I feel stupid coming to this forum and asking for help...
I really need someones help, recently i was browsing the internet at sites that don't have bad content, and was browsing a forum, I saw a picture that aroused me... i continued to look and lust after it. I still was continuing to screw up praying to God to forgive me, but each day after i would continue to do that exact same thing... but its getting worse, now i am looking at the g00gle search page and typing stuff that will bring *bad* pictures up... I KNOW ITS WRONG I SHOULDN'T LOOK.... i cant control it, I ask for forgiveness and then i feel intimate with God, and the next day I frickin' do it again... I am so tired of this, no matter what i do, i end up masturbating and looking at things i shouldn't, I Want to STOP---> I cant control it and i need guidance from a Christian which can guide me through the Bible and help me.... I am desperate, i am so tired of sinning, confessing, freaking doing it again thinking (i'll be forgiven... this chance may only come once... or I just cant control it) I pray to God through His Son and ask forgiveness, but i dont understand why I continue to FAIL THE FREAKING NEXT DAY, i mean everything i read in the Bible that is against it is just gone and i do it.... there is a little voice, very little voice telling me i shouldn't... but a bigger voice says "this may be the only time something like this comes along" or it says "hey, if I do it this time, i should be able to hold off" i cant even control myself for more than 1 week--- i am very embarrassed about this
I need serious prayer and guidance... i need accountability---->
I CANT CONTROL MYSELF my lust, my self-pleasuring, and my adultery *i dont have a wife, so i dont know exactly what looking at bad pictures would be, but i know its bad*
Someone please, please help me out... I need help
I am righting this, because i have gone to far... i cant control it please, please pray for me
Right now i am crying, and feel so depressed.... and you know what will end up happening tomorrow, i will fail again, and again, and again...
i don't even know why God has me on earth, all i do is freaking screw it up... please, please someone help me