I need Jesus
Posted: Sat Aug 19, 2006 7:02 pm
Hi everyone. I don't want to make this post too long, but, without discretion, I could.
I have been baptized for five years. I have (if I may say so) quite a good knowledge of the Bible; the Lord has blessed me with great intelligence. I attend a Christian University (which begins Monday the 21st, to my fear), have a devoted Christian family, a materially and spiritually blessed upbringing, etc, etc.
Earlier this summer my faith was strong. I was away from home and felt it easy to rely on God's guidance in an unfamiliar place (Chicago). In a short time, though, I have effectively fallen apart.
I read a cosmological book that challenged my faith. Much of it, I think, came simply from realizing how certain so many scientists and physicists are regarding the universe's origins. Of course, no one can supply a reason for the very beginning (why the Bang "Banged"), but, with their assertiveness, you scarcely notice.
That caused me to doubt first. Now, I am beset by doubt in almost every respect: Is the Bible true? Did the Red Sea really part? Did Jonah really get eaten by a whale? (Insert question about biblical miracle here) Is Christianity the right religion? Is there a God? Do people even need a God anymore? I have been visiting this website and others, flipping through various apologetics books, praying, all in an attempt to ease my mind, but they've been little help, me all the while remembering that a month or two ago, I was crying in church, thanking Jesus for his salvation and love.
When once I was diligently reading, I am currently afraid to read the Bible since I can't go far without doubt resurging in my mind. An almost certain sign of God's Providence last Sunday is not registering with me. And now, I have to go back to a school of 4000 Christians at a time when I am feeling quite nihilistic and lost.
Please pray for me and thank you if you have read all this.
I have been baptized for five years. I have (if I may say so) quite a good knowledge of the Bible; the Lord has blessed me with great intelligence. I attend a Christian University (which begins Monday the 21st, to my fear), have a devoted Christian family, a materially and spiritually blessed upbringing, etc, etc.
Earlier this summer my faith was strong. I was away from home and felt it easy to rely on God's guidance in an unfamiliar place (Chicago). In a short time, though, I have effectively fallen apart.
I read a cosmological book that challenged my faith. Much of it, I think, came simply from realizing how certain so many scientists and physicists are regarding the universe's origins. Of course, no one can supply a reason for the very beginning (why the Bang "Banged"), but, with their assertiveness, you scarcely notice.
That caused me to doubt first. Now, I am beset by doubt in almost every respect: Is the Bible true? Did the Red Sea really part? Did Jonah really get eaten by a whale? (Insert question about biblical miracle here) Is Christianity the right religion? Is there a God? Do people even need a God anymore? I have been visiting this website and others, flipping through various apologetics books, praying, all in an attempt to ease my mind, but they've been little help, me all the while remembering that a month or two ago, I was crying in church, thanking Jesus for his salvation and love.
When once I was diligently reading, I am currently afraid to read the Bible since I can't go far without doubt resurging in my mind. An almost certain sign of God's Providence last Sunday is not registering with me. And now, I have to go back to a school of 4000 Christians at a time when I am feeling quite nihilistic and lost.
Please pray for me and thank you if you have read all this.