a father in need of prayer
Posted: Sat Jul 28, 2007 5:41 pm
First of all I would like to thank you for a great website and everything you do.
I am embarrased to share this, but I am a Desert Shield/Desert Storm veteran. I was honorably discharged in 1994 with accolades of rewards.
However, ever since my discharge I have not been able to gain employment except for one position with an large internationl information technology company which lasted for 2 years util a massive layoff came in '02. I took advantage of the downtime and attended college and graduated in 2005 with a bachelor's degree. I strongly felt God opened the door for me. Now, it has been over 2 years since graduation and I still cannot gain meaningful employment. I have been to so many interviews I have lost count. My house is in dire need of repair, my cars are falling apart and even my furniture is falling apart. I have a low paying job with no benefits or health insurance, no retirement plan; just paycheck to paycheck. I am middle aged and very very lucky to have good health. To make matters worse, I have to contend with a wife who despises to work and thinks I should do the work. Thankfully, she begrudingly goes to a job she hates and I have to sit and listen to her grumbling at the dinner table every night. I try not to say much. It is a shame to have a college degree and my wife can barely use email and word processing and she has a job with the public school system with nothing more than a high school education. I have a 12 year old son. It is so embarrasing for me to have all this happening in front of him. He will remember as the "father who cannot get a job" I quit church because it just too embarassing for me. I am beginning to wonder if there is something wrong with me. I do my best in interviews; smile, display professionalism and a positive attitude and try do all the right things and nothing seems to work. Thirteen years!!!!..13 years have gone by and I am still paying a heavy price for serving my country. Everyday the anger at God swells and I have beg God to help me with this anger toward him...and I just can't shake it when another rejection from a job comes around. If this keeps on going, I will have to sell my house and divorce and let my wife raise my son and live on the street. Social services will probably take him away from me unless God doesn't answer prayer soon.
I am embarrased to share this, but I am a Desert Shield/Desert Storm veteran. I was honorably discharged in 1994 with accolades of rewards.
However, ever since my discharge I have not been able to gain employment except for one position with an large internationl information technology company which lasted for 2 years util a massive layoff came in '02. I took advantage of the downtime and attended college and graduated in 2005 with a bachelor's degree. I strongly felt God opened the door for me. Now, it has been over 2 years since graduation and I still cannot gain meaningful employment. I have been to so many interviews I have lost count. My house is in dire need of repair, my cars are falling apart and even my furniture is falling apart. I have a low paying job with no benefits or health insurance, no retirement plan; just paycheck to paycheck. I am middle aged and very very lucky to have good health. To make matters worse, I have to contend with a wife who despises to work and thinks I should do the work. Thankfully, she begrudingly goes to a job she hates and I have to sit and listen to her grumbling at the dinner table every night. I try not to say much. It is a shame to have a college degree and my wife can barely use email and word processing and she has a job with the public school system with nothing more than a high school education. I have a 12 year old son. It is so embarrasing for me to have all this happening in front of him. He will remember as the "father who cannot get a job" I quit church because it just too embarassing for me. I am beginning to wonder if there is something wrong with me. I do my best in interviews; smile, display professionalism and a positive attitude and try do all the right things and nothing seems to work. Thirteen years!!!!..13 years have gone by and I am still paying a heavy price for serving my country. Everyday the anger at God swells and I have beg God to help me with this anger toward him...and I just can't shake it when another rejection from a job comes around. If this keeps on going, I will have to sell my house and divorce and let my wife raise my son and live on the street. Social services will probably take him away from me unless God doesn't answer prayer soon.