l4ur4 wrote:I am 21 years old. At age 17 I asked God to fill me with the Holy Spirit. I believed he did. It didn't take much longer than a year to lose my faith. I became deeply interested in science and what scientific evidence had to say about the "possibility" of a God. "If God is real, there should be evidence all around us of Him." That was my thinking. However, instead of finding more of God, I found less and less of Him until my faith turned into a horribly plagueing doubt. I have been tormented with different possibilities ever since. I have tried asking God for help and guidance. I have gone to Him in tears praying for Him to touch me . . . but after enough time with no answers and no feeling of the Holy Spirit . . . I can't help but feel like I'm praying to nothing. Or if there is a God . . that He just doesn't want me. So.
1. Am I saved even though I am tortured with disbelief.
2. What, if God is there and listening, can I do to find Him again?
Salvation is gotten in only one way:
Salvation is a FREE GIFT. It is not gained by feelings or asking
God for anything. It is not gained by prayer. It is not gained by
good works. It is not gained or attained or kept by feelings or
obedience to God.
Feelings, obedience, fruit, works should all RESULT from
salvation, but they are NOT a necessary consequence of salvation.
The Holy Spirit is given to those who believe in Jesus Christ
for everlasting life. The Holy Spirit is a PERMANENT possession
of the saved person. He will NEVER leave you ever, even if
you want Him to. BUT God does not give the Holy Spirit to
anyone who has not first received the free gift of eternal life.
I cannot say whether you ever believed in Jesus for eternal life.
Unless you believed that by simply believing in Jesus you were
saved eternally no matter what you ever do in the future you
did not receive eternal life.
Unless you believe what God says, understanding what He
says, that is, knowing the meaning that He intended, not just
Anything you think He said, you have not believed Him for
everlasting life.
Everlasting life means life that is everlasting. Many professing
Christians think that they believe in Christ for life, a conditional
life which is conditioned upon their continued faith, obedience,
works, fruit, etc. This is NOT believing in Him for eternal life.
The nature of saving faith can be easily seen in the story of the
woman at the well of Sychar, John 4:
5 So He came to a city of Samaria which is called Sychar, near the plot of ground that Jacob gave to his son Joseph. 6 Now Jacob's well was there. Jesus therefore, being wearied from His journey, sat thus by the well. It was about the sixth hour. 7 A woman of Samaria came to draw water. Jesus said to her, "Give Me a drink." 8 For His disciples had gone away into the city to buy food. 9 Then the woman of Samaria said to Him, "How is it that You, being a Jew, ask a drink from me, a Samaritan woman?" For Jews have no dealings with Samaritans. 10 Jesus answered and said to her, "If you knew the gift of God, and who it is who says to you, 'Give Me a drink,' you would have asked Him, and He would have given you living water." 11 The woman said to Him, "Sir, You have nothing to draw with, and the well is deep. Where then do You get that living water? 12 "Are You greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well, and drank from it himself, as well as his sons and his livestock?" 13 Jesus answered and said to her, "Whoever drinks of this water will thirst again, 14 "but whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst. But the water that I shall give him will become in him a fountain of water springing up into everlasting life." 15 The woman said to Him, "Sir, give me this water, that I may not thirst, nor come here to draw." 16 Jesus said to her, "Go, call your husband, and come here." 17 The woman answered and said, "I have no husband." Jesus said to her, "You have well said, 'I have no husband,' 18 "for you have had five husbands, and the one whom you now have is not your husband; in that you spoke truly." 19 The woman said to Him, "Sir, I perceive that You are a prophet. 20 "Our fathers worshiped on this mountain, and you Jews say that in Jerusalem is the place where one ought to worship." 21 Jesus said to her, "Woman, believe Me, the hour is coming when you will neither on this mountain, nor in Jerusalem, worship the Father. 22 "You worship what you do not know; we know what we worship, for salvation is of the Jews. 23 "But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth; for the Father is seeking such to worship Him. 24 "God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth." 25 The woman said to Him, "I know that Messiah is coming" (who is called Christ). "When He comes, He will tell us all things." 26 Jesus said to her, "I who speak to you am He."
This interchange is most important. Note that two things must be understood in the
saving proposition. First, WHAT the gift of God is: Eternal Life.
Second, WHO the guarantor of eternal life is: Jesus Christ.
To the one who BELIEVES in Jesus Christ FOR this gift, the gift is given.
But to receive it, one must understand and believe he has it.
Another vital point is the contrast that Jesus Christ makes between drinking
physical water, which must be contined to be drunk for one to not thirst again
and drinking the Living Water which He offers in the Gospel.
To not thirst physically, one must drink and drink and drink and continue
to drink physical water to quench his thirst. After a time one has drunk
water, he thirsts again, and he must then drink again to quench his thirst.
BUT this is NOT the case with the Living Water. One drink of this
Living Water is sufficient to produce everlasting life. One drinks of
the Living Water by believing the life giving proposition that Jesus
is the Christ: 1 John 5:1 “Whoever believes that Jesus is the Christ is born of God,”
John 5:24 "Most assuredly, I say to you, he who hears My word and believes in Him who sent Me has everlasting life, and shall not come into judgment, but has passed from death into life.”
How do we KNOW that by taking ONE DRINK, (believing in Jesus Christ for
everlasting life at a point in time = punctiliar faith) one is saved eternally, and
his salvation is not conditioned upon continued faith? Because Christ that the
one who drinks of the Living Water WILL NEVER THRIST.
Every gospel promise says the same thing. Never come into judgment!
Never thirst again! Passed from death to life. Has everlasting life.
Will not perish! Justified from ALL things.
Salvation is through faith and faith alone. Faith cannot be mixed with
works of any kind for salvation.
Works, fruits, obedience, should all be the result of salvation. The basis
of all these is first salvation.
One is not saved by saying the “sinners prayer.” Nor by “receiving Jesus
in his heart.” Nor by receiving Jesus Christ as Lord.
The only way to receive the FREE GIFT is by FAITH alone. Only the
faith which DOES NOT WORK justifies.
Romans 4:5 “but to him who does not work but believes on Him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is accounted for righteousness,”
The ungodly man is justified (saved) by simply believing, and nothing else.
Unless the free gift is received “without cost,” it is not received at all.
Revelation 22:17 The Spirit and the bride say, "Come." And let the one who hears say, "Come." And let the one who is thirsty come; let the one who wishes take the water of life without cost.
Biblicist "Believe in Christ for Eternal Life"