Catch 22
Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 10:13 pm
Hey guys, got a question for ya.
As I've said in a topic before, I want nothing more than to be a Christian. However, it seems that whenever I have a belief in the reasonableness of Christianity, it gets torn down by its opponents. Could be any number of reasons: They seem better educated, argument is more eloquent, are more popular, spew more invective, etc. This isn't really a request to help my debating technique or anything.
I'm reminded of a passage in Mere Christianity where Lewis said something about how lacking confidence will disable anyone from being either an honest Christian or atheist. It seems that I lack the virtue of confidence, or self-esteem, or whatever it is that allows one to hold fast to anything without being dithering to and fro from whatever is popular. The problem for me is that the thing I want to believe, Christianity, tells me (I think) that no virtue can really be obtained unless through God. But it seems impossible to obtain His gifts if you don't really believe, at least not fully and truly.
So I want the trait necessary to be able to hold fast to a belief, but the thing I've not yet come to believe is its only source. What do I do?
As I've said in a topic before, I want nothing more than to be a Christian. However, it seems that whenever I have a belief in the reasonableness of Christianity, it gets torn down by its opponents. Could be any number of reasons: They seem better educated, argument is more eloquent, are more popular, spew more invective, etc. This isn't really a request to help my debating technique or anything.
I'm reminded of a passage in Mere Christianity where Lewis said something about how lacking confidence will disable anyone from being either an honest Christian or atheist. It seems that I lack the virtue of confidence, or self-esteem, or whatever it is that allows one to hold fast to anything without being dithering to and fro from whatever is popular. The problem for me is that the thing I want to believe, Christianity, tells me (I think) that no virtue can really be obtained unless through God. But it seems impossible to obtain His gifts if you don't really believe, at least not fully and truly.
So I want the trait necessary to be able to hold fast to a belief, but the thing I've not yet come to believe is its only source. What do I do?