Many questions
Posted: Sun Mar 07, 2010 5:54 pm
Hello everyone!
I'm eighteen, and at this point I'd consider myself undecided, however I tend to be a little skeptic towards any kind of religion. So bear with me upon this
For a little background on myself, I was born and raised Christian, but when I became interested in higher consciousness and what I'd call "wisdom", things changed.
I don't like the idea that speaking of god conjures up idea of the old guy with the white beard in the skies judging, observing, punishing, and rewarding. I feel that once you're on that track, you're totally off the path of true mental development. It seems people don't want to grow up, and instead, they want the great parent in the sky looking after them, asking Jesus to do it for me. "If only I place my trust into Jesus he will save me from my sins and look after me and all will be well". I just can't put so much effort, so much prayer and worship into something I can only believe is there, I can only have faith in it.
It just doesn't make sense to me logically, I guess. I read on these forums that faith will, quite literally, make PERFECT sense and things will just "fall into place". I read the website and all of it's justifications for the Bible, all of these things saying, "God can exist, and here's why." I've prayed and prayed. But how about a *seemingly* more simple answer?
God and science work together, however, I watch things like
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1iMmvu9eMrg
and YouTube Channels like
http://www.youtube.com/user/cdk007
http://www.youtube.com/user/DonExodus2
and mountains of videos of the like, and I just can't seem to believe it. I turn to my interests, my innermost burning desire to KNOW, and it leads me away from God. Why would he create this illusion where *seemingly* so much points away from his Word? Trust me, I WANT to believe! I have a lovely Christian girlfriend and we talk about faith a lot. Our conversations usually end up with her referring me to her small group leader to answer my questions. I get a little upset because she can't answer herself.
I'm eighteen, and at this point I'd consider myself undecided, however I tend to be a little skeptic towards any kind of religion. So bear with me upon this
For a little background on myself, I was born and raised Christian, but when I became interested in higher consciousness and what I'd call "wisdom", things changed.
I don't like the idea that speaking of god conjures up idea of the old guy with the white beard in the skies judging, observing, punishing, and rewarding. I feel that once you're on that track, you're totally off the path of true mental development. It seems people don't want to grow up, and instead, they want the great parent in the sky looking after them, asking Jesus to do it for me. "If only I place my trust into Jesus he will save me from my sins and look after me and all will be well". I just can't put so much effort, so much prayer and worship into something I can only believe is there, I can only have faith in it.
It just doesn't make sense to me logically, I guess. I read on these forums that faith will, quite literally, make PERFECT sense and things will just "fall into place". I read the website and all of it's justifications for the Bible, all of these things saying, "God can exist, and here's why." I've prayed and prayed. But how about a *seemingly* more simple answer?
God and science work together, however, I watch things like
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1iMmvu9eMrg
and YouTube Channels like
http://www.youtube.com/user/cdk007
http://www.youtube.com/user/DonExodus2
and mountains of videos of the like, and I just can't seem to believe it. I turn to my interests, my innermost burning desire to KNOW, and it leads me away from God. Why would he create this illusion where *seemingly* so much points away from his Word? Trust me, I WANT to believe! I have a lovely Christian girlfriend and we talk about faith a lot. Our conversations usually end up with her referring me to her small group leader to answer my questions. I get a little upset because she can't answer herself.