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I really dont feel saved..i feel like im constantly letting the Lord down...i dont feel like a christian because im not even out there doing what a Christian was saved for... i go to school and its my last year and people tell me im supposed to concentrate and leave everything for later but... i feel like i cant do that with God... i know i must put him 1st but it just feels like i have one foot in each world
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Also when i go to church ( im catholic) everything feels systematical like first we do this, then that , then Holy Communion etc etc....i have to say that my favourite part when i go to mass is when the priest speaks informally about life... i just wish they could make the Gospel more exiting, its just the same thing every week and do not get me wrong i do agree with most of the teachings i know from them but im having a hard time finding the passion when he speaks and recently ive been having a hard time going to church for that reason...I dont know what to do anymore..im a 17 year old kid and ive been feeling miserable for the past maybe month or so ( maybe a tad more not sure) . Dont get me wrong im not losing faith, even tho i do have moments in my life where i have little faith but i just wish so badly that i can experience something special from Him ..i guess the correct term is Baptised in the Holy Spirit i think. I dont know maybe God wants it this way for now so that my faith will grow or maybe im not being Christian enough...i just wish i had a clear picture. I guess its been some what 9 or 10 months ive recognised the Lord ( before i hardly went to church and just used to be one of those people that didnt really know anything about God and didnt really try to understand him..it became tradition) but i dont even know if i can call myself a Christian.
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I dont feel saved but i do feel miserable. I wish i had a mentor ..who was mature in Christ.
God bless you guys
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