Praying for God's will ABOVE my own
Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2011 2:16 pm
I am brand new to this site and I approach you, fellow believers with a humble request for prayer about a matter which has been consuming my mind.
My husband and I have been trying for our 1st baby for almost 4 years and it seems that it has not been in God's will to bless us in this way up to this point. Mostly, I remain positive and prayerful, because I know that God's ways are not our ways, and I know that His timing is always perfect, yet these past couple of days, after having been convinced I was finally pregnant, only to find out it was a false alarm, I feel the devil is dragging me down with doubts about myself, hopelessness for the future and a faith in God which is being tested. I feel God Himself is bringing me through the refiner's fire, and I am struggling! I pray to God to let His will be done, and then I take back my dreams and hopes and try to fix things myself, ending up always frustrated and upset. My husband and I are on the waiting list for IVF, but what I need is prayer for FAITH, belief in what my eyes cannot see and what my mind can not know. I pray that God will bless us with a child who I will bring up in a home devoted to Jesus, but more than this, I ask that you will pray with me for acceptance of whatever God has ordained for me in this situation, and that His will shall be done. I long to stop being selfish in my desire for a baby, but I am finding it tough right now. Thank you so very much for reading and your prayer would mean so much to me. GB.
My husband and I have been trying for our 1st baby for almost 4 years and it seems that it has not been in God's will to bless us in this way up to this point. Mostly, I remain positive and prayerful, because I know that God's ways are not our ways, and I know that His timing is always perfect, yet these past couple of days, after having been convinced I was finally pregnant, only to find out it was a false alarm, I feel the devil is dragging me down with doubts about myself, hopelessness for the future and a faith in God which is being tested. I feel God Himself is bringing me through the refiner's fire, and I am struggling! I pray to God to let His will be done, and then I take back my dreams and hopes and try to fix things myself, ending up always frustrated and upset. My husband and I are on the waiting list for IVF, but what I need is prayer for FAITH, belief in what my eyes cannot see and what my mind can not know. I pray that God will bless us with a child who I will bring up in a home devoted to Jesus, but more than this, I ask that you will pray with me for acceptance of whatever God has ordained for me in this situation, and that His will shall be done. I long to stop being selfish in my desire for a baby, but I am finding it tough right now. Thank you so very much for reading and your prayer would mean so much to me. GB.