This really bothers me...
Posted: Fri Jun 01, 2012 6:48 pm
I'm a somewhat sensitive person, meaning that it doesn't take much for me to get angry, stigmatized, or in other ways upset. I know what I believe and why I believe it, I know that God is real and I believe in Christ.... But I have a VERY hard time dealing with atheists and others (but mostly atheists) when they direct such immense hatred at me, use condescending words toward me, and such. They don't really dissuade me in my thinking, although they may plant seeds of doubt, but I think the fact I get upset makes it hard for me to keep pressing on. You can call me thin-skinned, it's true. (I attribute my short-temper to my father. ) It bothers me that I get upset because I feel like a weakling and that I have a pitiful level of faith that I let it bother me, and yet I cannot stop it.
I feel like I'm battling myself.... This must be what they call the spiritual warfare we experience. There's no other way to describe it other than I'm constantly being "stabbed" over and over again with their "knives". Part of me almost doesn't fear death in the fact that they will all finally shut up, but I suppose it's not the right way to think of it. Some days are worse than others. (NO, I am NOT suicidal, I do not want to imply this.) I'm just tired, and I'm only in my 20's.
What I want to know is, how do you all handle this when you are in debates with them, read things on the Internet or see things on the news that really make you mad (or sad)? Basically - how do you put up with other people when all you feel is walls being built up against you to shield you from others? Keep in mind I already have social anxiety, am introverted, and have a low trust of others the way it is.
Sorry for the incoherent post.
I feel like I'm battling myself.... This must be what they call the spiritual warfare we experience. There's no other way to describe it other than I'm constantly being "stabbed" over and over again with their "knives". Part of me almost doesn't fear death in the fact that they will all finally shut up, but I suppose it's not the right way to think of it. Some days are worse than others. (NO, I am NOT suicidal, I do not want to imply this.) I'm just tired, and I'm only in my 20's.
What I want to know is, how do you all handle this when you are in debates with them, read things on the Internet or see things on the news that really make you mad (or sad)? Basically - how do you put up with other people when all you feel is walls being built up against you to shield you from others? Keep in mind I already have social anxiety, am introverted, and have a low trust of others the way it is.
Sorry for the incoherent post.