Pray that God will change my brain
Posted: Sat Nov 03, 2012 9:01 pm
You know I just want to nip this problem out of my life if at all possible. And this of course has to do with the problem I address in this thread.
http://discussions.godandscience.org/vi ... =3&t=38025
And the thing that I"m needing prayer about, just so happens to be one of my own solutions to this problem or at least a solution in with God could use. And that is to re-do my brain, and get rid of the things I desire like the desire and "need" to be loved by a woman or to get married, to have kids, or to do other neat things because let's face it, it won't happen in this life since I'm pretty sure that the end will come quite easily in the next few years either for me personally or for all of humanity.
And because God only designed wonderful things like marriage and raising kids to only be done in this crazy messed up short span of existence known as "this life" quite honestly I"m not ever going to get to experience such great things my grandparents and great grandparents experienced simply because I think God cared much more for them and for all the other lucky ones living right now than He does for me and others like me.
Quite honestly I now feel like I have been cursed by being alive in this horrible time period and being born in a garbage generation of people who love their meth, their violence, their tattoos and their piercings OH and their atheism and who wouldn't mind murdering me on the spot just for looking at them the wrong way.
To be real honest about my feelings. I'm still a believer and I"m still very much for God and I still love and believe in Him. But to be very honest I think got has singled me and others like me to be His red headed step children who He likes to experiment with just like Job for instance and specifically for me I think He wants to see just how far a person can go without love and affection and how far they can go by being treated like garbage by every single person they are around until they finally stop living.
Remember God isn't just a "God of love" like what that loser Joel Osteen says. God can basically do whatever He wants and if He wants to torture a few people for whatever reason He can do so.
So I guess He finds great pleasure in many of His followers or as I call them "so called followers" treating me and others like me less than garbage and kicking them when they are down.
But I guess my request is if God has any love or mercy left for me or for anyone else like me, why can't He at least REMOVE the desire to marry, to have a family or heck just remove the desire within me to be loved and to give love. Because I'm a guy and not a evil selfish woman I'm always seen as a sexual predator and as someone looking to take advantage of a woman. Why can't God just bless me with amnesia? I mean, if God created our brains than surely He can fix them in such a way that we can get by and get on with our lives.
But I tell you, women today are so messed up in the head with feminism and Nancy Grace it's disgusting! And if you don't believe check out this article I saw on facebook a few days ago, it's out of New Zealand but it captures quite nicely what I"m talking about in this paragraph. I have a feeling you will see more situations like this sadly in the future.
http://www.stuff.co.nz/national/7903165 ... of-torment
And not only that they expect so much from us, they expect us to have muscles, to have corporate ceo type jobs that make six figure salaries. They want us to be jerks that deal drugs and get kicked out of bars for brawling. I mean they are insane! But why do I still have a desire to be with one? The problem I think is God really planned marriage to be for "better" generations for "better times" that are now long gone and impossible to return to. And I don't know, I mean I'm a human being who has needs, I just don't know why God wants to treat me and others like me so bad.
And to even make me feel this same torment even if I make it into heaven will be too much to take. Why do some of you all here think He will do such a bad thing? Again, just like many of God's "wonderful followers" you want to kick your wounded when they are down. You want to brag about how God has given you a perfect life with a great spouse and great kids and great everything while you at the same time, take great pleasure in less fortunate people like me who are legitimately less fortunate I didn't do anything bad to deserve this,I have a clean criminal record, I have finished high school, I've been though college and I've got the talent and the ability.
But anymore I guess it's all about luck! What TIME PERIOD you were born into, what kind of town or community you live in and what kind of family you were born into. It's more luck than it is talent. And it really make me sick!
But either way in conclusion, for those of you reading this that actually care, please pray that God will change my brain and cause me to get by with nothing or with as little as possible since I'm pretty convinced that's how He has things scripted to play out for me and many others like me. And pray that if I make it into heaven that I will be able to withstand all the additional torment from all of his other self righteous followers for all their constant prideful bragging and horn tooting that will be in my face on a constant basis. Oh well, I'm done for now.
http://discussions.godandscience.org/vi ... =3&t=38025
And the thing that I"m needing prayer about, just so happens to be one of my own solutions to this problem or at least a solution in with God could use. And that is to re-do my brain, and get rid of the things I desire like the desire and "need" to be loved by a woman or to get married, to have kids, or to do other neat things because let's face it, it won't happen in this life since I'm pretty sure that the end will come quite easily in the next few years either for me personally or for all of humanity.
And because God only designed wonderful things like marriage and raising kids to only be done in this crazy messed up short span of existence known as "this life" quite honestly I"m not ever going to get to experience such great things my grandparents and great grandparents experienced simply because I think God cared much more for them and for all the other lucky ones living right now than He does for me and others like me.
Quite honestly I now feel like I have been cursed by being alive in this horrible time period and being born in a garbage generation of people who love their meth, their violence, their tattoos and their piercings OH and their atheism and who wouldn't mind murdering me on the spot just for looking at them the wrong way.
To be real honest about my feelings. I'm still a believer and I"m still very much for God and I still love and believe in Him. But to be very honest I think got has singled me and others like me to be His red headed step children who He likes to experiment with just like Job for instance and specifically for me I think He wants to see just how far a person can go without love and affection and how far they can go by being treated like garbage by every single person they are around until they finally stop living.
Remember God isn't just a "God of love" like what that loser Joel Osteen says. God can basically do whatever He wants and if He wants to torture a few people for whatever reason He can do so.
So I guess He finds great pleasure in many of His followers or as I call them "so called followers" treating me and others like me less than garbage and kicking them when they are down.
But I guess my request is if God has any love or mercy left for me or for anyone else like me, why can't He at least REMOVE the desire to marry, to have a family or heck just remove the desire within me to be loved and to give love. Because I'm a guy and not a evil selfish woman I'm always seen as a sexual predator and as someone looking to take advantage of a woman. Why can't God just bless me with amnesia? I mean, if God created our brains than surely He can fix them in such a way that we can get by and get on with our lives.
But I tell you, women today are so messed up in the head with feminism and Nancy Grace it's disgusting! And if you don't believe check out this article I saw on facebook a few days ago, it's out of New Zealand but it captures quite nicely what I"m talking about in this paragraph. I have a feeling you will see more situations like this sadly in the future.
http://www.stuff.co.nz/national/7903165 ... of-torment
And not only that they expect so much from us, they expect us to have muscles, to have corporate ceo type jobs that make six figure salaries. They want us to be jerks that deal drugs and get kicked out of bars for brawling. I mean they are insane! But why do I still have a desire to be with one? The problem I think is God really planned marriage to be for "better" generations for "better times" that are now long gone and impossible to return to. And I don't know, I mean I'm a human being who has needs, I just don't know why God wants to treat me and others like me so bad.
And to even make me feel this same torment even if I make it into heaven will be too much to take. Why do some of you all here think He will do such a bad thing? Again, just like many of God's "wonderful followers" you want to kick your wounded when they are down. You want to brag about how God has given you a perfect life with a great spouse and great kids and great everything while you at the same time, take great pleasure in less fortunate people like me who are legitimately less fortunate I didn't do anything bad to deserve this,I have a clean criminal record, I have finished high school, I've been though college and I've got the talent and the ability.
But anymore I guess it's all about luck! What TIME PERIOD you were born into, what kind of town or community you live in and what kind of family you were born into. It's more luck than it is talent. And it really make me sick!
But either way in conclusion, for those of you reading this that actually care, please pray that God will change my brain and cause me to get by with nothing or with as little as possible since I'm pretty convinced that's how He has things scripted to play out for me and many others like me. And pray that if I make it into heaven that I will be able to withstand all the additional torment from all of his other self righteous followers for all their constant prideful bragging and horn tooting that will be in my face on a constant basis. Oh well, I'm done for now.