Thoughts and goodbyes
Posted: Mon Apr 04, 2016 9:36 am
Just realised its been nearly 2 years since I've been here!!
If anyone has missed my usual mojo I tend to be pretty honest and call it as I see it.
So here it goes.....
I thought for a while meh I'm taking my ball and going home.
Thanks Rick and Audie for the colloquialism
It came to my realisation through some deliberate prodding due to my instinct that my place on this forum was in question.
Nothing nasty of course, the caliber of person on here is above that but more a general feeling I was getting.
I was faced with the realisation when you ask hard questions you may not get the answers you like.
If you don't want honest answers then don't ask.
So I am genuinely grateful for the honest response. I didn't like it. But I'm grateful for the candour and honesty.
But that leaves me wanting to take the closet exit.
I'm not your usual Christian, I'm not your usual anything
I question everything and challenge constantly. My own belief systems the most obvious thing in question. I search and research and internalise and try to be genuinely honest and heartfelt in my positions.
But I'm not going to compromise, or change or navigate who I am to suit the majority. I never have and I'm not about to start.
I have been saddened to realise but not surprised that my faith has been questioned on here. How grounded I am, my thoughts on Christ' divinity, and the most fundamental basics of my faith.
Whilst I believe I have always been very grounded in portraying such, it is secondary issues that have brought such questions to the forefront.
For that I make no apologies.
If it had been a year ago it may have been different because that was when I vocally questioned the Trinity as interpreted by the 'church'. Or even eternal torment/punishment which I'm just not sold on.
But it's more a reflection I believe to my views on gays, refugees, Muslims ect
I'm not towing the line to popular Christian thought, which is evident as such questioning is more evident in recent times.
It becomes an easier assessment to view my beliefs as wayward and not 'mainstream' and to place me in the troublesome category than to openly digest and converse the issues.
That sounds harsh and I'm not questioning that I'm respected on here but the truth is that my faith has been the subject of conversation on this forum by some mods.
That pisses me off.
I take my faith very seriously, it's the cornerstone of my world.
My faith is not the question and when it is made to be the issue then that is a serious problem.
The question is rather the interpretation of what our faith means.
No doubt there are differences as to what that entails and I don't shy away from my viewpoints.
But my faith, my Christianity is sacred. Not to be questioned or made redundant by anyone.
Questions as to its legitimacy or to how grounded it may be makes me feel like perhaps I'm not in the right place.
I like being challenged, always been a person up for debate but when my basic faith is in question it really makes the whole endeavour a mute point.
Which saddens me greatly.
This has been an awesome experience
But I cannot stay where I feel I am misunderstood and misinterpreted.
This is a fantastic community and not perfect but a community of loving Christians but a community that I find myself on the outskirts of and that's not a place I feel comfortable in.
Peace and love
If anyone has missed my usual mojo I tend to be pretty honest and call it as I see it.
So here it goes.....
I thought for a while meh I'm taking my ball and going home.
Thanks Rick and Audie for the colloquialism
It came to my realisation through some deliberate prodding due to my instinct that my place on this forum was in question.
Nothing nasty of course, the caliber of person on here is above that but more a general feeling I was getting.
I was faced with the realisation when you ask hard questions you may not get the answers you like.
If you don't want honest answers then don't ask.
So I am genuinely grateful for the honest response. I didn't like it. But I'm grateful for the candour and honesty.
But that leaves me wanting to take the closet exit.
I'm not your usual Christian, I'm not your usual anything
I question everything and challenge constantly. My own belief systems the most obvious thing in question. I search and research and internalise and try to be genuinely honest and heartfelt in my positions.
But I'm not going to compromise, or change or navigate who I am to suit the majority. I never have and I'm not about to start.
I have been saddened to realise but not surprised that my faith has been questioned on here. How grounded I am, my thoughts on Christ' divinity, and the most fundamental basics of my faith.
Whilst I believe I have always been very grounded in portraying such, it is secondary issues that have brought such questions to the forefront.
For that I make no apologies.
If it had been a year ago it may have been different because that was when I vocally questioned the Trinity as interpreted by the 'church'. Or even eternal torment/punishment which I'm just not sold on.
But it's more a reflection I believe to my views on gays, refugees, Muslims ect
I'm not towing the line to popular Christian thought, which is evident as such questioning is more evident in recent times.
It becomes an easier assessment to view my beliefs as wayward and not 'mainstream' and to place me in the troublesome category than to openly digest and converse the issues.
That sounds harsh and I'm not questioning that I'm respected on here but the truth is that my faith has been the subject of conversation on this forum by some mods.
That pisses me off.
I take my faith very seriously, it's the cornerstone of my world.
My faith is not the question and when it is made to be the issue then that is a serious problem.
The question is rather the interpretation of what our faith means.
No doubt there are differences as to what that entails and I don't shy away from my viewpoints.
But my faith, my Christianity is sacred. Not to be questioned or made redundant by anyone.
Questions as to its legitimacy or to how grounded it may be makes me feel like perhaps I'm not in the right place.
I like being challenged, always been a person up for debate but when my basic faith is in question it really makes the whole endeavour a mute point.
Which saddens me greatly.
This has been an awesome experience
But I cannot stay where I feel I am misunderstood and misinterpreted.
This is a fantastic community and not perfect but a community of loving Christians but a community that I find myself on the outskirts of and that's not a place I feel comfortable in.
Peace and love