Ty drds , you are a true brother and a true brother in Christ .
Over the years we have become family and I thank God for bringing you into my life .
And I thank God for bringing everyone here into my life . It feels like a great big family
I was diagnosed with tuberculosis and they took some lab work .
They said that my blood antigen levels were elevated and recommended a screening for prostate cancer .
They then took X-rays of my chest to see if my tuberculosis was in the lungs and therefore infectious or only in the blood and latent .the chest X-ray was negative so my tuberculosis was non infectious . The doctor told me I had 2 options .
1.live with it but I had a 30% chance of it eventually getting into my lungs and becoming infectious .
2. Go for a 9month treatment of strong antibiotics in which I would have to be checked every month to make sure the meds aren’t damaging my liver .
But the news that scared me was when the doctor told me I had elevated blood antigen levels and recommended a prostate cancer screening . He made a referral to urology which was 2 fridays ago and and it was supposed to be processed in 3 business days .it’s now 11 days and still the referral hasn’t been processed .
I’m not sure if the tuberculosis meds have this effect on me or not but it’s been triggering my ocd and I have had a few panic attacks most likely from the stress .
But thanks to a kind Mexican lady who I consider my mom she ordered me to come and stay in her house till I get things sorted out . I can’t refuse an order from mom hehe , so I took her up on the offer .
A relative from nyc came into San Diego and texted me and asked how I was and when I told him he didn’t respond by saying he’s praying for me or he hopes I’m feeling better . His only response was I need to get back with my older brother lol
I already told him that I have recently forgive him and his family .
I was watching a Jesus Virtual reality movie on my oculus go and when I heard Jesus say that you must forgive or you won’t be forgiven and it made me think long and hard about the hatred that I had inside me for my brother and his family and I told God that I don’t have what it takes to forgive them . I asked him fo give me what it took to forgive them . That was 3 days ago and I have finally let go of the hate .
As far as talking to then again , if I get through this I might eventually find a day in the year and have a short small talk session with him and his family but right now I gotta focus on my health .
Please pray for me that the screening doesn’t show anything bad .I have another brother in Christ who has a very bad mental disorder and I have developed a live video session that completely calms him down . Without these sessions he won’t be at peace .
The crazy part is I was about ready to start looking at apartments to rent across the border in playas de Tijuana where I could live in a very cost effective area next to the beach .
If my screening goes well that is still my goal
Guys if I can’t make it to the board drds who is for all intents and purpose one of my real brothers will update you guys as we chat on Facebook and on the phone all the time .
I will never forget the time I had on the forum . You guys are all the angels that God sent into my life .
God bless you all