My Plight as an Agnostic
Posted: Thu Oct 07, 2004 2:34 am
I am 20 yrs. old, and I want to know the truth about God's existence. As a matter of fact, it almost means the difference between life and death for me. I have come to the conclusion that the Universe does not necessarily need God to exist. Therefore, a necessary proof for Gods existence cannot be shown. I will give an explanation as to why. It is not important to read this part to understand my question though. If you want to skip it, scroll down to summery.
Religious people are more than willing to accept an all-powerfull, eternal being. They never seem willing to accept, that this Universe may be eternal and all that is. Why is this so? When all other unimportant reasons are eleminated, it seems to comes down to one reason: Faith. Something that I do not hold in my possesion. Since, I do not have faith and becuase I cannot simply fake faith, I am doomed to never be able to use this excuse. (I really do believe that I am doomed for not being Christian)
I have noticed many people talking about who made God if God created the Universe. That question though does not prove Gods' inexistence or existence even when answered, because it reults in an infinite progression of creators. God made the Universe. Someone made God. Someone made that someone and so on and so forth. Something must have come from nothing. I and I believe everyone else has to except that. Even if there were an infinite number of creators, they as a group would be something that came from nothing.
It seems as if all life in the Universe can be explained with the simple rules of physics. The body is very much like a machine with many nerves running to a brain. The ideas of artificial intelligence are almost tangible. We do not need a soul to have feeling, percieve color, or to talk about God. That's what the brain is for. Which brings me to one of my most important question of all, what is the purpose of the soul if our brain accounts for all actions of body and mind? I fear that question will never be ansered, but I am still not hopeless.
Summery
1. The Universe could have existed forever without God.
2. Something must have come from nothing
3. Life can be explained through physical laws.
Now, to my plight. If God does not exist, for what reason do I have to live. I could simply kill myself and forget about everything that ever happened. My life would only hold the value that I arbitrarily set for it. If God exists though and he created me for the purpose of love, then he will be angry for my action. (I hope he would be merciful) I do not enjoy life though. I cannot decide what I want to do. I get poor grades in college, because I'm too preoccupied with other things. Life just seems like a hardship; Something I have to bare. If I found out God didn't exist for absolute certainty, I would kill myself. I don't know and that's the only reason I live. Since God cannot be a proven certainty, I am only asking that those who believe will tell me about how I can experience God. If I experience him, then I may aquire faith. With faith I can escape from my plight.
David Hume a declared agnostic was asked by a friend before his death about wether or not he believed in life after death. Hist answere was, "It is possible that a knob of coal placed upon the fire will not burn."
Thank you for using your most valueable resource (time) to at least read my question.
Bobby
P.S. I left out my last name to prevent a call from mental health. In case a concerned person were to call them.
Religious people are more than willing to accept an all-powerfull, eternal being. They never seem willing to accept, that this Universe may be eternal and all that is. Why is this so? When all other unimportant reasons are eleminated, it seems to comes down to one reason: Faith. Something that I do not hold in my possesion. Since, I do not have faith and becuase I cannot simply fake faith, I am doomed to never be able to use this excuse. (I really do believe that I am doomed for not being Christian)
I have noticed many people talking about who made God if God created the Universe. That question though does not prove Gods' inexistence or existence even when answered, because it reults in an infinite progression of creators. God made the Universe. Someone made God. Someone made that someone and so on and so forth. Something must have come from nothing. I and I believe everyone else has to except that. Even if there were an infinite number of creators, they as a group would be something that came from nothing.
It seems as if all life in the Universe can be explained with the simple rules of physics. The body is very much like a machine with many nerves running to a brain. The ideas of artificial intelligence are almost tangible. We do not need a soul to have feeling, percieve color, or to talk about God. That's what the brain is for. Which brings me to one of my most important question of all, what is the purpose of the soul if our brain accounts for all actions of body and mind? I fear that question will never be ansered, but I am still not hopeless.
Summery
1. The Universe could have existed forever without God.
2. Something must have come from nothing
3. Life can be explained through physical laws.
Now, to my plight. If God does not exist, for what reason do I have to live. I could simply kill myself and forget about everything that ever happened. My life would only hold the value that I arbitrarily set for it. If God exists though and he created me for the purpose of love, then he will be angry for my action. (I hope he would be merciful) I do not enjoy life though. I cannot decide what I want to do. I get poor grades in college, because I'm too preoccupied with other things. Life just seems like a hardship; Something I have to bare. If I found out God didn't exist for absolute certainty, I would kill myself. I don't know and that's the only reason I live. Since God cannot be a proven certainty, I am only asking that those who believe will tell me about how I can experience God. If I experience him, then I may aquire faith. With faith I can escape from my plight.
David Hume a declared agnostic was asked by a friend before his death about wether or not he believed in life after death. Hist answere was, "It is possible that a knob of coal placed upon the fire will not burn."
Thank you for using your most valueable resource (time) to at least read my question.
Bobby
P.S. I left out my last name to prevent a call from mental health. In case a concerned person were to call them.