Doings of the Spirit
Posted: Thu Apr 28, 2005 7:40 pm
Until a few days ago when I read the article on the Holy Spirit, I had no idea what the Spirit was, or what his purpose was (as of a year ago, I was an Atheist, so be kind ). But now I know that the Spirit is the part of the Trinity you're filled with as a Christian, and it can guide you through trouble.
This was great news for me, because I would have a presentation on Old Earth Creationism, for the purpose of giving my world religion class a taste of the less-than-standard views of Christianity, and all the errors the Professor says it has. I now knew exactly how to pray: "God, let your Spirit guide me. Help steady my hand and give me the confidence to go on." This was an important presentation because for the whole semester I had been hearing the same old white-bred interpretations of Genesis from the others, and I just sat there.
Today was that day and, well, it all went so-so. I don't know if the Spirit was with me or not, but I had a nervous voice that I knew would make others uncomfortable, but I couldn't help it. There were other problems too. It sure could have been worse, but I just don't think that way; I found myself thinking I was a complete idiot, that I didn't do this right, and I looked the wrong way when that happened. Even on the drive home, I was saying "Why couldn't I just keep my ****ing mouth shut about that one part?"
For the longest time I was praying that God help me feel better, but I found myself wondering if the Spirit doesn't work that way. I know I have to accept what God wills, and that he works in mysterious ways, blah blah blah...but damn it, this is a hectic week for me, and I could use the boost!
I am starting to wonder what praying is all about. I mean, if I asked others to pray for a friend who's gone astray, would the Spirit be more likely to respond than if I prayed alone?
P.S. I could use some praying help with a take-home Final for Photoshop class...it's huge and and I don't know if I'll get so much as half of it done on time.
This was great news for me, because I would have a presentation on Old Earth Creationism, for the purpose of giving my world religion class a taste of the less-than-standard views of Christianity, and all the errors the Professor says it has. I now knew exactly how to pray: "God, let your Spirit guide me. Help steady my hand and give me the confidence to go on." This was an important presentation because for the whole semester I had been hearing the same old white-bred interpretations of Genesis from the others, and I just sat there.
Today was that day and, well, it all went so-so. I don't know if the Spirit was with me or not, but I had a nervous voice that I knew would make others uncomfortable, but I couldn't help it. There were other problems too. It sure could have been worse, but I just don't think that way; I found myself thinking I was a complete idiot, that I didn't do this right, and I looked the wrong way when that happened. Even on the drive home, I was saying "Why couldn't I just keep my ****ing mouth shut about that one part?"
For the longest time I was praying that God help me feel better, but I found myself wondering if the Spirit doesn't work that way. I know I have to accept what God wills, and that he works in mysterious ways, blah blah blah...but damn it, this is a hectic week for me, and I could use the boost!
I am starting to wonder what praying is all about. I mean, if I asked others to pray for a friend who's gone astray, would the Spirit be more likely to respond than if I prayed alone?
P.S. I could use some praying help with a take-home Final for Photoshop class...it's huge and and I don't know if I'll get so much as half of it done on time.